Friday, September 30, 2005

hihi.. today is friday. 30th sep.. totally stressed out day.. had so many so many stuffs to do in camp, all coming to me at the same time.. im stressed.. 3 of my kids supposed to be attend svc today, but 2 of them cant be found!!! oh no.. no choice, gotta keep finding.. haiz.. thank God yang lin managed to help me find them.. late a bit for svc, but still in time to enjoy the show.. praise God for that.. think it's my fault, told them le, but didnt make sure they really know whr's the place.. haiz.. slipshod work from me?? haiz.. getting critical of myself.. am i doing a good job??
tmr is children's day.. a big big day.. a time to reach out, a time for so many souls to be saved.. God can.. i can make it rite? God, aren't u for me?? Yes, u are!!! amen!! so many things needs to be done, preparations, games, my mind is a blank.. too fast?? am i sprinting too fast?? but it's e last lap le, how can i slow down?? haiz..
guess that im affected.. need someone to talk to.. met them on tues.. y do they seem so indifferent? to them, church seems a thing of the past.. something for them to look back n see what they had done b4.. i want to rech out to them again.. but i seem to be so helpless.. these were the ppl who actually were praying, praising n worshipping God together w me in the past.. but now.. is God really a thing of the past for them?? or is it the stress?? somehow, im affected.. maybe it's because that i still dun understand certain things? i dun think i'll ever understand these things.. to me, He's everything.. like what i read in the devotion a few days ago, it's not our faith that causes us to believe in God, but it's because of Jesus.. He's the author n finisher of our faith.. He's the reason..
now, tmr's gonna be a tiring day, but God is my strength, isnt He? i really need You now to come through for me.. it's not going to be easy, but God i really need You.. i'm not going to lose You.. NO!! never will that happen.. im moving on, pressing on.. even if i gotta crawl, im not going to give up.. i will keep moving.. yes, i will..
wow, just did a stock take on my finance just now.. really amazed at how much i can spend.. cant believe it.. purely on children's day alone, i've spend close to 100 bucks.. plus my bills, building fund, tithes.. wow... what a great sum of money.. but it's all for a good cause rite? He will bless me back many many folds more!! Amen!!
yeah, tired of typing le.. still go work to do later.. haiz.. meeting up w patuma? dun know.. gotta finish the masks tonite.. it's going to be a special for my bus, E04.. yeah, it is.. harhar..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, September 30, 2005

Sunday, September 25, 2005

hihi,.. God is good all the time and all the time, God is good!! Amen amen!! wow.. was blessed tremendously today.. wah.. really got a shock, but it certainly came at the right time.. God always does things according to His time.. Don't believe?? i'm a classic testimony of that.. hee..
anyway, this wk was a good wk.. really busy n tired in camp.. but i had a great weekend.. wow.. my cg members sang me e birthday song 3 times!!! yup, u're correct, it's 3 times.. harhar.. 1st, it was after svc on sat.. then it was today during cg, then it was just now during ktv.. harhar.. had a great time fellowshipping w them today.. we started playing the Angel n Mortal game in e cg today... it's gonna last a month.. to help us get to know one another better.. i gonna be a good angel.. n hopefully, i have an even better angel.. hee.. looking forward to it..
anyway, it's going to be Children's Day soon.. just less than a wk left.. im really excited.. gonna believe for 60 children for my two groups n i know that's possible w Him n only Him alone can do it for me!! gonna do really intensive saturation over the next two days.. God is going w me to fight this battle!! yeah!! He's so awesome!! just love Him more n more each day..
this coming tues, gonna meet up w pam n the rest of E167!! wow.. it's been like yrs since we meet up le.. so we going to finally meet up n celebrate my brithday.. harhar.. it's going to really great.. im excited n eager not bcoz of my birthday, but bcoz im going to see them soon.. harhar.. really miss each n everyone of you so much..
yup, how can i miss out sharing w u what i've learnt over the wkend rite? one thing that really struck me abt the word this wk was abt building God an upper room.. y is it upper n not any other rooms?? that's bcoz God should n must always be ur top priority of concern no matter what u do!! will the thing that u r doing affect ur relationship w Him?? n y must it be a room? thats bcoz in a room, u have ur own 'world'.. a place of ur own.. it's where u have ur privacy n u can be alone n not disturbed.. thats y we want to invite God into our upper room today, a place just between Him n me.. n no other ppl is invited!! it's whr i will commune w Him, n draw in His presence.. it's my personal altar before Him, n this is where, i made that decision.. yeah, the decision to always have this room just specially for Him!!
yeah, gonna stop here le.. going to clock some hours of sleep.. really need to rest this tired body of mine.. n yang lin, just wanna tell u that it's fun having u as my student.. though u r a bit playful., but still quite ting hua one.. muz really study hard n prepare well for ur O's okie?? glorify Him w ur results n bear a good testimony!! take care n have more rest too!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, September 25, 2005

Monday, September 19, 2005

hey yup, updating my bloggie again.. rara.. anyway, last wk was a good one.. n this wk will b a better one.. i suppose.. had many blessings during e wk.. financial blessings.. hee.. in the form of ang baoz.. coz 16 sep is my b-dae according to the chinese calendar.. not only that, saturation was fun too.. but the main thing was that svc was awesome..
it was a tremendous svc w rev dr richard roberts.. he sang a song for us during svc.. n i must say that he sang really well.. hee.. anyway, it was the msg that really struck me,,.. it was about the seed and harvest.. Jesus said in the bible that e labourers r few, what did it really meant?? there's r actually lots of labourers who r willing to sow the seeds, but not many ppl r able to see the harvest.. that's y when the harvest comes, there r only few labourers left.. what happened in the middle?? that's when ppl lose their focus.. or should i say, they focused on the wrong things.. many ppl didnt know that n they keep looking at the seed, wondering y is it still the same n that nothing is happening.. slowly, they will lose their interest n focus n thus giving up on the harvest..
therefore, what should we do?? yeah, that's right, change ur focus, up the gear!! change our sight n look at e harvest.. it's going to come n will come.. God's power is within that seed that u sowed, n it shall bear forth fruits.. amen!! what is ur desired result?? Rmbr Jn 3: 16?? God gave His beloved son, expecting the desired results too.. he wanted His people to be reunited back w Him.. so what abt u? what is the desired result of ur sowing?? for me, it's seeing more n more children coming to know abt God. n being discipled in the ways of God.. that's y i sow in my time, my money, my effort.. what abt you today?? how r u making full use of ur time, ur money... what do u want toachieve at the end of the day? is it just good results? is it more money? is it a stable job? or is it a comfort zone for just urself?? what is it that u sow ur life too??
rara.. feeling tired now.. really need a rest.. to slp, to think.. had a great time worshipping God last night.. felt really burdened, but He came n lifted me up.. yup, He's awesome.. His burden is light.. anyway, counting down.. 2 more wks to the big day.. n yup, my b-dae coming too.. but i guess it dun really matters too.. going to be quite busy on that day.. rara.. all for a good cause.. Amen!! take care everyone.. n to those having exams, jia you n study hard!! Gam-Ba-Te!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, September 19, 2005

Friday, September 16, 2005

yup, im typing again.. bored.. troubled?? hmmm.. abit bahz.. dun know what's wrong w her?? haiz.. maybe i need to be fierce n disciple her? children's day big day is coming up.. everyone is busy, tired, n even taking leave so that they can serve for all the 3 services.. everyone is standing in line w the move of the church.. but y must she choose to be out of it? all i asked was for her to avail herself to visit and do saturation.. is it too much? erm.. okie, i understand ur work commitments, but everyone has their commitments too.. who is not tired?? but at the end of the day, what is the point that we are trying to achieve here? yeah, that's right.. all we truly wanted was for more kids to know about God, to come into His kingdom.. when a soul is saved, the whole heaven shall rejoice.. isnt that true? why cant u see the big picture?
yah, everyone has a different capacity level to handle stress.. maybe i can handle it better than u, but that's not the point!!! what matters is our personal walk with God.. God called us to ENLARGE our tents, yah, YOU!! He called YOU to ENLARGE ur tent.. it's not going to be by your own strength, but He's going to be there for u if u're willing to do it.. NO PROBLEM or BURDEN is too big for God.. maybe u r depending too much on ur own strength.. it's tiring, isnt it.. y dun u just choose the simple way out n ask God for that outpouring of His Spirit n strength.. HE will, only if YOU ASK!!!
u really disappointed me alot, but im not grieving over the fact that u chose a different path.. what grieves me is the loss of the potential in you that u have failed to maximise.. the talent that u have failed to make full use of.. but i'll keep praying for u, coz i know that one day, u will see it.. yes, i dun how long it will take u, but im sure u will..
The SUN has SET.. what does it mean?? Bro Michael shared this w us during the prayer meeting on wed.. he said that when the sun has set, darkness comes and no work can be done.. but now, there's still light.. there's still time for us to work.. yeah, it's NOW or NEVER,.. catch the flow, catch the anointing.. dun let it just pass u by.. now is the time for harvest.. dun miss it for anything else in the world.. dun wait till the sun has set n then regret.. catch the FIRE now!!
Visitation n saturation was good over the last two days.. praise God for it.. confirmed a newcomer for tmr's event and for children's day.. u know what the mum asked me?? she asked y didnt i invited them earlier.. i was like,.. erm... speechless.. yeah, n it struck me that yah, though i've been working on these areas for so many years, but there's still so many other children out there, who have not heard about Jesus.. there's this urgency in me to want to do even more for these children.. God placed me here for a purpose, yeah, to spread the love of God to them.. n im not going to do this alone.. i'm going to need all of you.. yup, each n everyone of you.. patuma, rachel, elijah, louisa.. like me, we r e warriors of God that He sent to fight this battle w the devil.. we're not going to lose.. yup, not only that, got quite a few contacts, n they seem to be interested in coming for our big day.. yup, all brand new kids.. gotta keep praying n fasting.. so pls continue to pray for me and the entire children's church okie?? believe for a mighty harvest, and many many kids are going to get saved.. AMEN!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, September 16, 2005

Monday, September 12, 2005

Back from Taiwan

hey hey,,.. i'm finally back from taiwan.. harhar.. wow.. the feeling is shiok, especially when im enjoying my one wk break now.. anyway, this trip to taiwan was truly an eye-opener.. somehow, i enjoyed it a lot n not only that, it taught me some interesting things too..
before we left for taiwan, there were reports about taiwan being hit by typhoons.. but i didnt expect to experience one myself too.. when i first reached there, the weather was super hot, thus it nv occured to me that it will all change in a few days time.. it was fun, or even exciting, preparing for the typhoon thou.. harhar,, we had to tape up all the windows w masking tape, like a cross shape, to prevent it from shattering into small pieces.. then we had to keep all the loose items that were outside our bunks.. i once thot that these all the things that we see in tv but nv expected to do them myself.. harhar.. when e typhoon came, we were told to evacuate the camp, coz it wasnt made of concrete, just a container, with a metal sheet as the roof.. but.... the losuy camp that we evacuated to didnt want us there, coz it's too crowded.. so we had no choice but to return to our "containers".... tat nite, there wasnt any electricity, and we cant even go out of our bunks to go to the toilet.. those tat are urgent just had to pee into a jerry can.. harhar.. thank God i wasnt one of them.. managed to tahan till we were allowed to go out the nt day.. thou its only one night b4 the typhoon passed us, it really taught me to appreciate our daily neccessities more.. n definitely to treasure S'pore more, cause it's well protected by our neighbours..

that wasnt the only fun thing that i had,,.. in taiwan, fireworks arent illegal, so on the last nite of our stay there, we bought alot of fireworks to play with, in camp.. harhar.. it was truly amazing n exciting to set off the fireworks by yourself.. it's like a mini NDP fireworks display.. wow,,.. took a video of it with my phone camera, but the feeling is quite different from seeing it just in front of you!!
harhar.. during e R&R, my friends and i visited the Toilet restaurant(ma ton chang ting).. the seats were toilet bowls, even the hotpot was served in a tiolet bowl.. harhar.. then the rice and ice-cream was served in a squating toilet bowl.. baked rice was in a bathtub.. thou the food was only average, but it was definitely a nice theme.. harhar.. took alot of photos in taiwan this time round, but i dun have them with me yet, caused i used my fren's digi-cam.. haiz,,.. thats y i need a digi-cam.. hee... 27th sep is not very far away wor!! harhar,,.. *hint hint*
kk, that's all bahz.. take care everyone, will update again soon with the photos.. hopefully, or check out my friendster.. it may appear there... bye!!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, September 12, 2005