Tuesday, November 28, 2006

im there... not quite.. almost... yea, im half-way thereeeee.... the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter... harhar.. 2 papers are over.. just 2 more left to go.. it's gonna be fun! im enjoying every moment of it! EXAMS ARE FUN!! arent they? harhar..

statistics paper was ok, but i couldn't finish.. haha.. too much working, but the smart me is SMART!! wrote down all the workings, just that i lack the final answers.. should get my working marks.. hee.. estimated marks.. 70-80... not bad! though cant get my 105 marks.. harhar.. but im happy..

economics paper was fun today! yippie.. can u imagine doing 92 mcqs and 4 fill-in-the-blanks.. but im FAST.. harhar.. think im like the 1st to finish.. took only 1.5 hrs to complete a 2 hr paper.. it was quite ok to do.. haha.. calculated my marks too.. minimum i can get is 74.. max is 94.. so yup, it will be in that range.. this time round, dun have to worry abt other ppl scoring like 90+++ coz it's not easy.. each wrong answers is minus one mark, thats y 80 plus would put u in the A+ range.. got a chance!! harhar.. awaiting my final results

so what's left? the module with my favorite prof this sem!! n my 'beloved' AS.. harhar.. AS is going to be challenging but im up for it! nothing is impossible for me, for God is with me! amen!

harhar.. really wanna thank God for the past two papers.. it was made easier with Him around.. His peace surrounds me everyday!! harhar.. didnt even felt stressed at all though i didnt study alot.. n the best thing is, i know how to do the papers.. God's strength is upon me!! harhar.. ok, gonna STUDY now, not MUG!! harhar.. gonna get my A+++++++'s.. hee...
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Sunday, November 26, 2006

yup, today was a good day... harhar.. 1st of all, i went out in the afternoon to celcvrate my dad's bdae!! that means i got lots of good food to eat!! harhar.. we went to eat dian xin.. wah.. super full.. oh.. i just realise that i need to start to exercise le! harhar.. feeling fat these days.. been like so long since i last exercised! harhra..

then, it was evening time.. haha.. reached church at 345pm to help out.. preparing for anson and winnie's holy matrimony! harhar.. it was indeed a joyous occasion! i still rmbr the times when i first started out serving in cch.. winnie was my VL n she was still studying in poly la.. but now, she's happy married!! harhar.. so happy for her! n bcoz of this wedding, i got a chance to meet up with one of my backsliders.. zane n leah.. yup, they moved house le, but they still rmbr me!! harhar.. im so amazed.. n im glad that i was able to sow a seed into their lives then.. praise God! i still rmbr the times when i spend up to an hour or more visiting them.. they were so young then, n wheneve i visited them, they need time to warm up to me.. those were the days when i ended visitation at 10plus 11pm.. wow..

those memories are simply so precious to me.. every seed we sow is simply worth it.. even if no one sees or no one appreciates, im sure God knows n He appreciates us for everything we are doing for Him.. n for me, that's already more than enough! im going to press on.. to sow more seeds into the lives of all these children.. i want a breakthrough.. i know it can be done.. God, come n renew this fire within me.. SEEK n i will FIND, ASK and i will be GIVEN, KNOCK and doors will be OPENED to me! amen!

oh.. 9 plus more hours to my 1st exam.. but here i am, watching soccer, chatting n blogging.. harhar.. but i know that i have studied enough.. so im just gonna relax n have fun! school is meant to be fun rite? so many ppl commented that i can not study alot n do well.. but seriously, i dun think im doing this alone.. harhar.. God is with me.. some of you may wonder, how am i able to do so well? i can tell u that God is always there for me.. ever since i've became a Christian 5 yrs ago, i feel that im always under His protection.. He watches over me in my coming in, and in my going out! God is the same yesterday, today and forever! harhar.. im going to excel!! yeah, the spirit of the excellence is in me! i will do it! haha.. yooohooo..... 4 more days n im going to be havoc!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, November 26, 2006

Friday, November 24, 2006

today was the day la! i really got nothing to say abt this day.. Murphy's Law happened to me today.. well done! any idea what's Murphy's Law? that means anything bad can happen, all happened to me today.. wanted to really grumble n get into 'pissed off' mode but God kept reminding the verse the other day.. the garment of praise.. yeah..
let me tell you what happened.. 1st i didnt eat lunch today.. harhar.. thats y i wanted to eat dinner.. but, 1st of all, im late to meet my boss n thus i cant eat dinner!! argghhhh... then guess what.. i had to take a bus to go to cg but when i reach the bus stop, the bus i wanted to take left!! wah... so i had to take another bus.. then guess what, i took the wrong bus!!! arggghhhh... cannot make it!! then in the end, i had to take a cab to the house n it costed me $7!! wa.. not a big sum of money, but to me, it's a lot in this time.. haha.. but, i chose to praise God!! God is an awesome God!
Cellgroup was really awesome today! the presence of God was so strong.. yup, really felt a touch of God, His strength, His renewal.. yes, God is the author and finisher.. whatever that He has set out to do and accomplish in our lives, He will finish it! yes, i know that im going to end this race on a high! wow! im glad that i was there for cg today.. harhar.. tired, eventful day.. a really bad day, but in the end, God turned everything good n awesome for me! that's y it's said in the bible that all things work together to those who love Him.. amen!
on course for greater things to come, im going to step out, to be what im called to be.. i 'll excel, coz God is with me! yes, the spirit of excellence!

i WILL step out into the unknown!
i WILL step out and attempt the impossible!
i WILL step out in confidence!
i WILL step out from the pull of the world!

yeah! great things are going to happen, mighty things are going to occur, but most importantly, God and me will in the midst of all these things!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, November 24, 2006

Thursday, November 23, 2006

haha.. im still fighting the creatures in the statistics world.. two more challenges to go.. but i've eaten the 'mushroom' n level up le!! gonna spit fire really soon!! roarzzzzzzzzz......... harhar.. gonna ace my statistics man! STATISTICS = MATHS.. need to install this formula into my brain.. then i'll ace my stats... yippie!! 6 more days n all my 4 papers are gonna be over! so exciting!! harhar..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, November 23, 2006

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

harhar.. blogging seems to be my escapade from studying.. anyway, just wanna share something that i read in the bible yesterday i think.. harhar... was super angry when God showed me the verse.. it was just a short sentence in a verse that i read..

Isa 61: 3 => the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness

wow.. what a verse at a time when im on fire fron anger.. yes, i have a heavy heart, i was burdened, angry, irritated and a lot more.. but God showed me this verse.. the garment of praise.. will u put on the garment of praise in times like these? when everything dun seem to be going ur way, when all things seems to be turning out the wrong way, will u choose to give Him praise.. i've learnt something.. i shall keep my peace.. God will fight the battle for me!! n i shall praise Him!! yeah, putting on the garment of praise.. wow!! harhar..

anyway, was reading soo's blog.. harhar.. i liked the song!! hee.. yeah, children are one of the greatest creation of God! they simply make my day!! yeah, all my lovely angels!! wow! really thank God for using me to make a difference in the lives of all these children.. thank God for the chance to teach, to make an impact in their growing up years.. i pray that each and every single one of them will grow up to be great men n women of God, with a heart after God, and be the shining light in their marketplace!

oh yes, i'm done with the world of economics.. conquered, won n moving on to my next quest.. the world of statistics.. harhar.. this sounds so super mario.. hee.. i shall embrace stats, n cultivate my love for stats!! harhar.. ya, gonna excel!! the spirit of excellence!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Wednesday, November 22, 2006

yes, today was the day of economics.. been studying economics for the whole day.. n im experiencing the law diminishing returns of studying.. the more i study, the lesser i seem to be able to absorb.. harhar..

after the big hoohaa over bgs.. i guess it's all over.. settled down.. not as agitated as last nite.. but still, i know that my God will fight for me.. though i may not get my A+ here.. i'll get it somewhere else.. ya, i need to study hard for my 4 papers..

it's not going to be easy.. this time round, im not as confident as i was for the mid terms.. somehow, i just lost the motivation to study.. n things dun seem to be registering in my brain.. but that may be good.. that means i cant depend on my own strength, but on God's strength.. i know that God's grace is sufficient for me.. amen! pls pray for me peeps, if u r reading this.. harhar.. pray for wisdom n God's strength to be upon me, that as i study, i 'll begin to understand all the concepts.. haha.. it's not by power, nor by might, but it's by the Spirit of God! God, u said that we should not lean on our own understanding, but in all our ways acknowledge You, n You will direct our paths.. so i pray, that you will begin to show me Your way! yes, i will trust and obey.. i wanna step OUT, and step UP!! yes, i will ARISE!!

yup, i know many of u peeps are having ur exams too.. but let's jia you n push on together! FOCUS on the upward call, on the prize ahead! strain forward, press on, keep on keeping on!! yeah! jia you peeps! we can do it!!

CHIONG ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

HARHAR.. THIS IS THE FINAL PLACE WHERE I SHALL VENT MY ANGER.. YES.. I GOT BACK MY BGS GRADES.. I GOT AN A- GRADE.. U SHOULD BE THINKING THAT I SHOULD BE HAPPY, BUT IM NOT COZ MY TWO OTHER FREN GOT THE SAME GRADE AS ME, N WE FELT WE DESERVED BETTER THAN THESE... ARRGGGGHHHHH... I WAS SUPER ANGRY TILL THE HIGHEST LEVEL LE.. THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I FELT SO UNJUSTIFIED!!

THE AMOUNT OF EFFORT PUT IN N THE GRADES WE GOT ARE LIKE HEAVEN AND EARTH.. WHILE SOME STUDENTS JUST NEEDS TO BE ACTIVELY TALKING IN CLASS N YOU GET YOUR GRADES!! WHAT IS CLASS PARTICIPATION!! WHAT CRAP IS THAT!! THE ULTIMATE.. THIS IS THE MEANING OF THE POWER OF THE TONGUE., HARHAR.. THIS IS SO FUNNY!! CRAP... HOW CAN SOMEONE WHO DIDNT DO AS WELL IN ALL OTHER AREAS BUT ONLY DID WELL IN CLASS PARTICIPATION BE BETTER?? YES I KNOW.. THATS THE FLAW OF CLASS PARTICIPATION.. I MESSED UP MY CP.. NOW I KNOW WHAT SMU IS ALL ABOUT.. CRAPPING N MORE CRAPPING IN CLASS.. BE NOTICED N U GET YOUR CP.. IS THIS REALLY WHAT'S IT'S ALL ABOUT??

IM GOING TO BE A CRAPPER IN SMU.. UNLEASH THE FULL POWER OF CRAPPING.. MUAHHHAAA... LEVEL 99... IM A GOOD CRAPPER U KNOW! HEE... I THINK RAE KNOWS.. HARHAR.. YA, IM NOT GOING TO SUAN PPL, BUT IM GOING TO CRAP.. IF THATS THE WAY, THEN I WILL CRAP MY WAY THROUGH.. HARHAR.. I WANT MY GRADES THAT I DESERVE..

I DESERVED MUCH MORE.. BUT GOD, I WIL TRUST AND OBEY.. I KNOW.. I NEED NOT DEFEND MYSELF.. U WILL FIGHT THIS BATTLE FOR ME! GOD IS AWESOME!! GOD WILL DO IT FOR ME! AMEN!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Sunday, November 19, 2006

im supposed to be studying now.. but somehow, feeling very distracted.. shall therefore blog.. haha.. hmmm.. n i dun even know what im distracted by, just simply not in the mood to study... yup, thinking.. thinking.. thinking..
tonite, seems a long nite.. haha.. thinking of the past.. of how slack i am, compared to now.. slacking has left me ever since i enter SMU.. but thats only to me.. when compared to my frens in sch, im still im of the slackest.. but for one of the rare times, im suddenly feeling very tired.. tired from all these studying n rushing n buzzing around.. really longing for peace, for a time of quietness.. think i need a run, at least thats the time when i am alone.. away with God.. thats the only thing i like abt running.. harhar..
longing for someone to talk to.. like how i always chatted on the phone with my frens in the past.. it's becoming a luxury to me nowadays to have time to even talk on the phone.. phone calls of 5 mins are like super long.. harhar.. whereas in the past, i can chat with frens for like 5hrs.. times have changed, like what we learnt, there is a time n season for everything.. maybe the times are over.. not now.. someone asked me a qn yesterday... so who do u hang out with usually.. then i was thinking, thinking, thinking.. cant seem to find the answer.. n i realised that i've been neglecting my frens.. or rather, i've been neglecting myself.. to spend time with all the lovely angels ard me.. harhra.. getting emotional tonite..
im longing for christmas to come, coz that means the end of the yr.. it would be good.. at least all the hype will be over.. n i can finally have a break... i wanna go out.. i wanna go play.. i wanna go watch movie.. i wanna play soccer.. i wanna break free n soar up high! God, lift me up.. take my to a brand new level.. i need something new.. i need you...
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sunday, November 12, 2006

this week's children's church service at JW and Expo is simply awesome.. This week is the week where all the children come to sow and give to the building fund, to build God a big house! yea! Was really touched by all the kids who came today n brought forth their piggy banks to give to God! it really isnt the amount that matters, but the heart that counts.. the heart that longs to build God a big house, a house where more ppl will come to know abt Christ.. n it reminded me of David, a man after God's heart! so are all these lovely angels! they brought their piggy banks, big n small, but in it, is a gift that is unmeasurable in monetary terms.. wow! my two handsome boys, timothy and trsytan, they were ultimately cute! they told their mummy they dun wanna bring their piggy banks, but they want to pack a big ang bao to give to God.. so today, they both brought their ang baos, with their letter to God written on it! these kids really amazes me, with their bright ideas, with their love for Christ..
felt really challenged by them, n also challenged to pray for my own kids.. i pray that they will rise up to the next level with God, to grow to be more in love with Christ.. n that they will know that coming to church is not a choice, but because they love God, love His presence, they want to make it a priority in their lives!
svc with pst Ulf was great! n he too, challenged us, to renew ourselves, to go on to the next level with God! yes, i need to move on, to my higher calling.. God, come and make me NEW, pour afresh upon me! do pray for me ok? i need a breakthrough in my spiritual life.. only then, can i challenge my kids to grow together with me! yup! ENLARGE my tents oh God!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, November 12, 2006

Thursday, November 09, 2006

heyhey... updating.. in a GSR now, but im not studying.. harhar.. shall go to the library later to study.. yup.. MS is need of my immediate attention.. been neglecting it for BGS.. harhar.. i want my A+... anyway, think im going to well for the mods this sem.. yup, but ulitmately, its not up to me to decide.. so eager to know my grades.. harhar..
anyway, shall share a piece of good news! harhar.. completed all my project presentations.. mon was bgs.. n it was great! harhar.. we got A++.. harhar.. praise God for it! anyway, AS presentation was fun too.. it was super funny though super tedious.. ya, the term is coming to an end and im looking forward to it! hee.. wanna earn more money during my break!
hmmm.. anyway, just wanna thank God for his strength! i've been sleeping super late la.. but surprisingly, i dun feel tat tired when i attend my classes.. when my fren saw me yesterday, she was like saying i still look so alive!! harhar.. but the thing is i was studying from 1am-6am the night before! harhar.. n i only slept like 3 hrs.. yup, really thank God for His supernatural strength! okok, i gotta go le.. haha.. will update again nt time!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, November 09, 2006

Thursday, November 02, 2006

This was the question that i saw when i was on my way last nite after BGS project. It was on the ad at one of the bus stops. And it really made me start thinking....

Was feeling frustrated and pek chek at the amount of things i gotta do for the projects.. wah! a mountain of work, is not an apt word to describe.. was in a super bad mood, n i guess the lack of sleep got to me.. slept at near 5am the day before and had to wake up at 9am..

But as i saw the question, i really thot hard about it.. and i was listening to my mp3 as well.. the song that was playing was "thank You" by CCC.. then i felt God spoke to me.. I could sense Him telling me, why am i wasting my time whining and complaining here? God says in the bible that in all situation, we just gotta trust in Him and He will direct our paths. He said that we should not be anxiuos, but with prayer and supplication, with THANKSGIVING, offer our requests to Him. Then i remembered the question that i saw, if i have 6 months left, would i still be whining why do i have 6 months left? or will i make the most of it, to live a fulfilling 6 months?

And i made a decision today.. i need to GROW UP! yup, i've decided NOT to make discouraging remarks anymore! Coz i felt that sometimes, though it's unintentional, i made remarks that end up hurting my frens. so i shall CHANGE!!! God says in His word that there is life and death in our tongue. n every word that we say should be edifying! yup! but im not perfect, so i'll need time, but i'll be nice! to my best ability! n the greatest benefitor, i think, will be RAE... harhar...
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, November 02, 2006