Thursday, April 26, 2007

Heard this song while on the way home from visitation. Was thinking, as usual, when i heard this song TV Mobile. n it's really nice! haa.. nice lyrics..



L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, April 26, 2007

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Yea, all my results are finally out!! haha.. modules that i thot i will do well, in the end, i didnt, and modules that i thot i didn't do well surprised me with grades that i nv expected.

In sequence of the results received....

COMMs - B
LTB - B+
FA - A-
Biz Law - A
BP - A+

Harhar.. God is indeed good.. it was a progressive improvement. at least im happy at the end of the day, everything is planned nicely. my first A+ in SMU. the A+ that eluded me last semester. Can you imagine if i got my results the other way round, with the B grade the last result i receive? think i will be much more upset. it's just a psychological thing. but thank God it's planned nicely. smiling all the way at the end. harhar.

thus, this meant an improvement in my GPA. 3.66 this sem.. out of a maximum of 4.0. hee.. it was 3.47 last sem. so now, my average over both sems is 3.565. hee.. im a happy person! but i can be happier!! going from glory to glory! yea! n the most wonderful thing is that i didnt study alot this sem as compared to last sem. fulfilling my goal for the year! praise God!

Minimising Input, Maximising Output!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Friday, April 20, 2007

things seems to happen all at the same time.

it has set me thinking.

sometimes, is blind faith good?

i think we need to know and understand what we believe in.

a lot of things flying around in my brain.

issues to handle and resolve.

Thank God for His timing, at least im not alone.

If not, i wouldn't have known what to do.

my capacity is stretched.

i need to expand.

i need to know more.

suddenly, i feel like taking up a new diploma or degree, about child psychology.

i have plently of time now.

to do alot of things, but im slacking.

i hate this feeling of doing nothing.

thinking n more thinking.

i need wisdom to handle this.

in a learning process right now.

back to more thinking.

at the end of the day, BALANCE IS THE KEY.
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, April 20, 2007

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

holidays finally arrived.. results are not out yet.. only one module.. a big fat B grade for COMMs.. sad.. but its ok.. hopefully my other modules will pull it up.. haha..

my BP exam is cui.. ultimate cui.. lazy to explain, but in need of God's grace that i will get my marks. It all depends on the mood of my prof now.. haha..

Who has nice nice books to read.. i want to read.. finding comfort in reading recently.. something i nv enjoyed while i was young, but i've slowly begun to love it.. it's definitely much better thinking about everything else.. just read.. no troubles, no problems to worry about..

And i need a job, who had lobangs for me? harhar.. going for an interview tmr.. as a trainer, conducting enrichment programs in schools.. basically, it will be about conducting games for primary school children, teaching them life skills through the process.. pay's not bad too, $35 an hour.. the only bad thing is that it's just once a week, about 1-2 hrs per session.. Hopefully i will get it tmr.. haha.. in need of money desperately!!

im really bored.. i guess i have nothing much to blog about this 4 months without school life.. haha.. it seems to be quite different.. somehow, i enjoy the busy busy life.. that's how ironic i am..
hehe..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Thursday, April 12, 2007

This is a really nice book, written about the childhood of Constance Beverly Briscoe. She never knew her name to be Constance, only known as Clare. Everyone called her Clare, even she called herself Clare Briscoe.

From young, she was abused. Physically, mentally, emotionally. At the age of 11, Clare went to a Social Services Centre asking if she could check herself in. As expected, she was rejected. That night, she went home and drank diluted bleach. She thot that she would just disappear from the face of this world, but it was not to be.
At 12, she went to the courts and took out a protection order against her step father. All by herself. That same year, she went to the hospital herself. To have a operation to take out 3 lumps in her breast, caused by constant pinching from her mum.
At 13, her mum moved out of the house, leaving her to fend for herself. No electriciy, surviving on candles. N she had to pay rent to her mum for staying in that house. To pay for the bills.

All these, she took it in her stride. Focusing on her goal to be a lawyer. She worked day and night just to pay for her school fees and bills. In 1996, Constance became a part-time judge, to be one of the first black woman to sit as a judge in the UK.

As i read this inspiring book, the 1st thot would be how peseverance is able to bring one to places. Focusing on the goals, rather than on the problems.

But more than that. as i read, the word "CONTENTMENT" came to me. How have we taken things around us for granted. A simple love from our parents. So many of us are blessed with parents that love us. but how often have we taken it for granted. the simple things of having electricity, a warm home to return to after a long and tired day. Have we ever thanked God for all these things that we have around us? Yet, we always grumble about why things are not happening the way it is. Why is this problem happening to me? But, sometimes, it's impt to be content with the things that we have. Im not saying that we should be satisified with just a simple, plain boring life. But...............

Constance may be described as ugly from young, but at the end of the day, i see the beauty in her peseverance. Her beauty in the decisions that she made to be what she is today! A truly nice book that gave me time to relax from all the studying. Enjoyed it alot! Especially so that I haven been able to find a nice book to read for a long time. If you are looking for a book to read, this wil be it.

On a side note, exams are coming to an end soon.. One more paper to go. Surprisingly, the past 2 papers have been great for me. Should be able to clear it with ease. This is the first time that I find exams such a breeze. Harhar. Hopefully, the grades will justify my confidence. Done all that i could, trusting in God for the rest!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, April 12, 2007

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

supposed to go to bed at 12am.. harhar.. but its 1218am now.. i will be in my comfy bed soon.. im tired..

i realised that im getting old.. harhar.. hurt my back again.. haahaa.. old liao.. cant sit too long to study.. i need to get up and running.. soccer training..

it's just 8hours plus more b4 my first paper begins.. the start of the battle.. one that has been guaranteed victory.. victorious i walk.. not that confident this morning.. but after ploughing through 2 past year papers today, im getting the the hang of the qns.. tmr shouldnt be much of a problem.. i have set a simple target.. 70%.. should get that at ease.. anything more, it's a bonus..

i read my book.. should have been studying.. a rather thick book.. 300 plus pages, but still i completed it in like 2days.. or rather 7-8hrs.. haahaa.. nice book.. something for me to get away from all the studying.. been a while since i've been reading..

Constance Briscoe is the name.. Ugly is the title.. rmbr it.. i will be back to share more about it, maybe tmr.. after i get bored from studying for my biizzzzyyy llooorrrr.. time to head for some well-needed rest for my brain cells, and my poor back.. harhar..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Easter came and went.. Time flew by yet again.. sounds cliche.. but still.. it really flew by.. think i was rather slack this time round.. nothing much to prepare, and stuff.. served only 4 out 8 services.. harhar.. compared to last big day, this is so much more relaxing..

no more saturation.. one week of hard work is all over!! i increased my attd.. hahrar.. from 18 to 31.. praise God!! though i didnt hit my target, but im still happy.. woooohhhoooo...

I feel like im having mood swings.. harhar.. sometimes, feeling super high.. then sometimes, feeling so tired, so lethargic.. im in need of a good rest.. to rest my mind and body.. how i wish i do not have any exams to take.. now, the reality of exams is coming in.. its just two more days..

I've been telling ppl to relax and have fun.. for their exams.. but.. am i stressed? haha.. im stressed.. yes, i am.. im stressed that im not having any stress about my exams!! arrrgggghhh... harhar.. no sense of urgency, it's the feeling of dependence yet again.. will i make it.. there seems to be an unsaid confidence this time round.. will it turn to complacency? haha..

i need to study.. im reading a real nice book now.. will share more after i read it.. can i not read my blue blue biz law textbook and orangy financial accounting book? i wanna read my book!!! been longing for a nice book to read.. arrggghhh.. i dun want to be lost in the bluish orangy world!!

haha.. enough of slacking.. hitting the books soon.. but.. i must still emphasize this!!! I WANT MY 24 HRS OF SLEEP SOON!!!! haaaaaa..........
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, April 08, 2007

Thursday, April 05, 2007

im sooooooooooooooo tired.. it's 115am now..

i want to sleep..

i need to sleep..

i must sleep..

but... there's so much to do.. arrgggh.. for one of the very few times, i feel so stretched.. not studying alot.. but so many things weighing on my mind.. so many things to consider.. to think.. i need His peace and the silence.. im beginning to like the nights more.. the quietness.. i need His strength.. I need a breakthrough!

Im so sure that i will sleep for 24 hours after my exams!! arrgggh... i can hear my bed calling me...

i need a touch from God! a brand new anointing.. to be focused once again.. im losing it.. blurred vision.. i need glasses from heaven, to see Your vision for me!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, April 05, 2007

Sunday, April 01, 2007

my world revolves around the letter "S" for the time being.. harhar..

It's time to START..

START what? many many things....

STUDYing - exams are just round the corner.. and i really need to START STUDYING!!! relaxing and SLACKING at the moment.. the mood isnt here yet..

SATURATION - Easter is nearer.. SATURATION rulez the day for the moment..

STRENGTH - and definitely, i need lots of STRENGTH, not by my own, but let the joy of the Lord be my STRENGTH.. sometimes, it's really interesting how God works.. placing all the little angels in my life.. their smile, their innocence, their simplicity simply melts my heart.. seeing them grow up tells me that all these is worthwhile.. like what i read from someone's blog, it's amazing how we depend on all these little angels for strength while they too depend on us, for direction, for guidance in their lives.. isnt it ironic? haha..

time to move, to crawl, to stand, to walk, to jog, to run and finally to sprint.. but it's a marathon in this life.. u simply cant sprint through it.. it requires different ways of living it.. sometimes, u just need to stick ur head in and crawl through it.. like a baby, u may fall while crawling, but pick urself up and move on.. yeah, moving on.. crawling through!! to reach the goal, the destination..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, April 01, 2007