Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Remember the word to Your servant,
Upon which You have caused me to hope.

This is my comfort in my affliction,
For Your word has given me life.

The proud have me in great derision,
Yet I do not turn aside from Your law.

I remembered Your judgments of old, O LORD,
And have comforted myself.

Indignation has taken hold of me
Because of the wicked, who forsake Your law.

Your statutes have been my songs
In the house of my pilgrimage.

I remember Your name in the night, O LORD,
And I keep Your law.

This has become mine,
Because I kept Your precepts.

You are my portion, O LORD;
I have said that I would keep Your words.

I entreated Your favor with my whole heart;
Be merciful to me according to Your word.

I thought about my ways,
And turned my feet to Your testimonies.

I made haste, and did not delay
To keep Your commandments.

The cords of the wicked have bound me,
But I have not forgotten Your law.

At midnight I will rise to give thanks to You,
Because of Your righteous judgments.

I am a companion of all who fear You,
And of those who keep Your precepts.

The earth, O LORD, is full of Your mercy;
Teach me Your statutes.
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Monday, October 22, 2007

a decision has been made.

help me to be firm.

pls pray that i will be strong

i will wait.

not my timing but God's timing.

help me to listen.

to God n not ppl.

walking the narrow way

it's the way to go.

pls pray.

thanks.
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, October 22, 2007

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Met up with the leaders and helpers on Monday. For my boss's 2nd discipleship session. Each session takes hours. Must be accumulated from the past 5 years. The 1st one started at 730pm and ended at 130am. On Mon, it started at 7pm and ended at 11plus. Harhar.. But what matters is that it's good!

Title: How to survive and succeed in CCH?

We need to PUSH!!

P - Persistence

There's are times of valley, times of disappointment, but never give up! Shared with the helpers my experience. How my group growed and multiplied. Then it became stagnant for 2 years. But God sees it even if no one does. Now, I moved on and God has brought revival! Average of 2-3 newcomers for the past 5 weeks and still counting!!!

U - Urgency

How urgent are you to seek God? What's your priority?

S - Share your burdens

CCH is a busy busy ministry. Sometimes, you can just serve and serve, but people may not even notice your existence. Press in, learn to take the initiative to share. We are a big family, always here to listen and lighten your load! We may be busy, but we will make time for you!

H - Hearing from God

Doing it God's way is definitely than doing it my way. Hearing and knowing His will should be the top priority. Learn to listen. Be sensitive. If you cant hear it, ask God to help you hear it!

During the session, we had to do 2 exercises. To write down some stuff.

What kind of legacy do you want to leave behind? How do you want people to know you as?

Enoch was a man who walked with God, David was a man after God's heart. Abraham was a friend of God. What are you?

For me, it was simple. I simply wrote, I'm Azrael. Azrael = God's helper. Yea, I want to be God's hands and legs, to be His helper. I'm also God's bridge! I always believe that a leader is not someone who has followers. But one who brings his followers to where he has been! Such that when I'm not around, they will be able to stand in the gap and do the things that i do. Thus, I'm the bridge that will bring my people to where I am.

The next exercise was to write down what God thinks of me. And what God sees me as?

I was brought to remembrance about the roles that we play in life - in my previous entry. I have 3 roles, or 3 things that God sees me as.

1) Child

A child is precious in God's eyes. A child is someone who can be nurtured/trained. A child is one with huge potential

2) Teenager

The teenager is one who seeks understanding about himself and things around him. This is a stage of preparation. For something greater.

3) Man

A man of possiblities. Anything is possible with God! A man of great achievement. I know I can achieve great things, only if I believe, listen and obey. And just today, God cleared my doubts about myself. I always had this thinking about what can i acheive in my life. It seems like the road ahead is not clear. Then God said to me. If i tell you everything now, will you still look to me? By then, you will be so engrossed in your own work. My future has been planned, i may not see it, but it's already done! Great things lies ahead, only if i trust Him.

Was blessed by the time spent with everyone. N i can see that the helpers are blessed too! It was really a great time! I sense something in my spirit! Raring to go! Yea!

Things to update.. Last Sunday was the 1st time I'm doing story, during svc. Scary, but it went ok. Just need to take note of some stuff, n be better prepared. harhar. And i got another present last Sat, a new wallet. A bit late, but it's the thot that really counts! Appreciated!

Haven gotten my results yet! My profs are super slack this sem, taking so long to mark the papers and they are mcq questions somemore!! wah faint.. anyway, im excited. finally got momentum to do work le. It's 130am now and I dun feel tired.. harhar.. Gonna get more work done! Yea!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Monday, October 08, 2007

Recently, many things are happening. Not sure if i can cope and handle with it, but i know that God is always just around the corner, awaiting me to seek Him.

Learning to hear from God.. harhar.. had a good time doing visitation yesterday, though it was tiring, but it was time well-spent. Visited one of my nc's and it's the 1st time i went into their house, n the 1st time that he's at home. Taught him tuition for a while, and talked to the mum. I still rmbr that the mum was hostile to me at the start, bcoz i invited her sons to church without 1st informing her. but now, they are my regulars and the mum is nice and i can sense that she was glad to have us making a difference in her son's lives.

As i walked home from visitation, i was just thinking about some stuff when God told me something about the different roles that we play. Each and everyone of us has a role to play. In the eyes of your child, you play the role of a parent. In your parents eyes, you play the role of a child. In school, you play the role of a student. In children's church, you play the role of an teacher. In a relationship, you play the role of a boyfriend or girlfriend. Different roles requires different committment, different rules and standards. In each of them, we may do well in some while faltering in others. To be the light and salt, we need to be someone who excels on all fronts. It's not going to be easy but God gave us the capacity to handle things. And someone told me this, if God have given all that you have, He must have given you the capabilities to handle them. There's more to be said, but its not formed in words yet. hehe..

Anyway, my boss may be leaving soon. I do not know what lies ahead in this road, but i pray that she will find her true happiness. What will happen after that, i do not know. Maybe we will all be split into other zones, maybe something else will happen. harhar.. i have no idea, just keeping an open mind, looking forward to the things ahead!

This time round, my exams may not yield that good results. lack of motivation to study. harhar. not as prepared as before, just gotta trust God in it. but i still have my finals. I shall arise and be the best tat i can be! projects deadlines are coming up, gonna be super duper busy! yea.. finally today, is my first day of rest! haha.. slept like 10 hours. so shiok. so now is the time for me to get back to work! yea!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, October 08, 2007

after a long long while, i finally found time to sit down and type this long-overdue entry. My bdae came and went, and now, im officially 22 le!! yuppie.. i got my Levi's belt from AW zone.. n i got 2 tops.. harhar.. one was a red-checkered top from anson, while the other was from josce n cindy from taiwan..

hmmm.. this yr's bdae is much better last year.. at least there were some form of celebrations.. harhar.. children's day came too! fast and furious. harhar.. i didnt hit my target of 70, only got 47 kids that came. but still must thank God for increase! heehee.. my new group, VL208, had been growing, even before children's day! yup, had 10 ncs in all for the 3 weeks before children's day and the most important thing is that they stayed! yup! plus all the newcomers from children's day, my group is going strong! hehe.. ready to multiply but i feel tat it's not ready to multiply yet. gonna wait for God's instructions! yup yup..

ok, gonna continue tmr.. going to sleep le.. hehe
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, October 08, 2007

Monday, October 01, 2007

mixed feelings right now... useless, helpless, struggling.. trying to be happy, confident, empowered.. 3 mid terms this semester, my slackest to date in SMU.. but still, things don't seem to be going down the right road.. just messed up one of my mid-terms today.. something that i could do, but simply becoz of some technical stuff.. not sure how well i will do, but doubt it will be up to my expectations..

another mid-terms tmr, finance.. my ke4 xin1.. studying finance is as good as writing tamil words to me.. totally lost.. supposed to be revising now, but dont even understand what's going on man! God must make a way, I'm simply stoning right in front of my laptop, not knowing what to do..

too many commitments, too much time spent.. some spent wisely, some not.. for the 1st time, i feel so lost throughout the entire exam period.. n for the 1st time this yr, my motto of minimising input n maximising output failed me.. output this time round may not even justify the input.. what went wrong? i simply have no idea..

a setback, to put things into perspective.. a tug from the back to keep things in check.. only to spur and push me on.. i will and i must prevail at the very end..

multi-tasking seems to elude me as age catches up on me.. entering into a new phase of life.. lead me through the narrow way!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, October 01, 2007