MaXiMiSinG uR p0t3nTiaL

2011-03-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

It's been a great weekend in Suntec. Indeed it's a NEW DAY, a NEW chapter for our church. Like what Pst Kong said, he is thankful to each and everyone of the members who stayed throughout the last 10 months despite the things happening in church. Similarly, in the same way, I am thankful to each one of you for staying and playing a part together with me to impact the lives of the little ones. And I appreciate each one of you. Over the weekend, I have learnt that appreciation is not a once a year event, but truly, it's a lifestyle, it's something that we do daily. Appreciate people around you for the things that they have done for you, be it small or big. Appreciate (Thank) God for looking out for you, maybe in ways that you didn't even realize. Learn to count your blessings!

It's been a really busy week for me in view of the move to Suntec, but it made me draw even closer to God. In fact, as I was meditating, I was reminded of a song "Here I am to Worship" and its lyrics struck me – "Here I am to worship, Here I am to bow down, Here I am to say that You're my God". It reminded me that in my serving, in my life, in everything that I do, I should and I must hold fast to these principles that the lyrics are singing.

∙ Here I am to WORSHIP

Our worship flows out of your adoration and love for the Lord. It is LOVE that will carry us through our daily struggles in life. In 1 Cor 13: 8, it says LOVE NEVER FAILS! God's love for us far outweighs any burdens in our lives. God takes care of all our needs. Just like Jonah, in order for the big fish to be there to swallow Jonah, God must have prepared the solution many many years back! Friends, I just want to encourage you, that God's love will NEVER fail you. When you are tired and weary, come back into the presence of God and say to Him, "Here I am to Worship"!

∙ Here I am to BOW DOWN

Bowing down speaks to me of an act of humbleness. As sons and daughters of Christ, this is a every important attribute that one should possess. It's not easy to be humble, especially if we think that we are better than others. But God honors the humble and resists the proud. It's the people who are humble that are elevated before Christ. In our relationships with one another, let's learn to be humble and not be proud. Let our words be seasoned with salt, no matter how nasty or mean the other person might be. Simply because God lives within us!

∙ Here I am to SAY THAT YOU'RE MY GOD

There's two things that I want to emphasize on over here. Firstly, it's the fact that because God is MY God, who can be against us? Indeed, no weapons formed against us will prosper, but we shall REIGN with Him in time to come. Don't be easily discouraged with short-term setbacks, but focus on long-term victory! The 2nd thing is the word "SAY". It speaks of an action that we need to do, something that we need to confess. Thus, it requires US to play a part, to acknowledge that Christ reigns over every situation, and learn to confess the Word of God over these situations!

Friends, I was super assured of God's love for me as this song kept playing in my head. That I know and I know, come what may, I will enter into His presence to worship, to bow down and know that He is my God!

I pray that you will be blessed as well! I choose to Love, I choose God!

Amen!

Have a great week ahead!
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Renewing your Mind

2011-03-07T10:25:00.001-08:00

Anyway, I just want to share with you from Rom 12: 2 for this week. It's about renewing of our minds.

Rom 12: 2 – And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

What does it really mean to be conformed to this world? From the dictionary, "conformed" means to act in accordance with current customs or modes. Or to comply with acceptable standards or norms. Or follow the crowd, run with the pack. Putting everything together, conforming to this world is simply accepting the standards in the world and acting in accordance of what the world thinks is right, and doing all what everyone else is doing. The bible says that man cannot serve two masters. Conforming to the WORLD means we are not conforming to the WORD!

Instead of conforming, we need to learn to be transformed! By the RENEW-ING of our mind!

Renewing of our mind allows us to follow God's standard and not the world's standard.

Renewing of our mind allows us to look through God's vision, at situations and issues from His perspective and not the world's perspective.

Renewing of our mind requires us to study the Word of God and hold fast to His promises!

The word "renew-ing" is in a continuous tense and thus, renewing of our mind is not a one time event. It does not happen only when we receive our salvation. Renewing of our mind requires continuous effort to meditate on the promises of God! Let the Word of God frame your world every day.

Friends, I just want to encourage you that my God never fails. And I believe that we serve the same God. Through good times and bad times, our God has a plan for us. Like what God says to Jeremiah in Jer 1: 5, He will say to you: "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you". Renew your mind daily with the Word of God and hold fast and trust in His promises!

Have a blessed week ahead!
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SEW Zone Devotion_7

2011-02-28T09:36:00.003-08:00

Hi guys,

Haven been hearing much from you. Hope all’s fine and you’re excited about the things to come in Suntec. Do reply to this thread and share your revelations with one another, even if you think that yours might not be as ‘interesting’ as Mr Caleb’s sharing! We welcome all!

For today’s sharing, it’s actually a word shared by Johann during our Sat CCH morning prayer meeting and I thought it was really good that I wanna share with all of you too! It’s taken from Joshua 3.

Jos 3: 5 – And Joshua said to the people, “Sanctify yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do wonders among you.”

Even as we prepare to enter into Suntec, God is preparing to do great works and wonders among us. There is a sense of excitement and expectancy in the air, but let us not be overtaken by all these. It is very important for us that at this very point of time, that we will make the effort to sanctify ourselves, and prepare ourselves for the things ahead. A revival is unfolding, just like something is going to burst forth.

So no matter where we move into, what matters most is still the presence of God! Just like the children of Israel when they are crossing the river of Jordan in Joshua 3, God commanded them to cross the river TOGETHER with the ark of the covenant. The ark of the covenant speaks to us as the Holy Spirit. Even as we cross ‘rivers of Jordan’ in our lives, we need to constantly go with the presence of the Holy Spirit. Place your eyes upon Him.

And most importantly, I want to assure you, that as you fix your eyes on the object of our faith, Jesus, we learn to treasure His presence, and His presence will go before us, with us and after us. Just like how it went with the children of Israel as they crossed river Jordan.

• Jos 3: 11 – Behold, the ark of the covenant of the Lord of all the earth is crossing over before you into Jordan

• Jos 3: 17a – Then the priests who bore the ark of the covenant of the Lord stood firm on dry ground in the midst of the Jordan,

• Jos 3: 17b – and all Israel crossed over on dry ground, until all the people had crossed completely over the Jordan.

Friends, I want to encourage you that no matter what you are going through, when you begin to look to God and seek Him, His presence will go before you. His presence will be in the midst of everything that you are going through. And most importantly, His presence will be with you till you have gone through everything, to ensure that you’re alright. Our God is a God who cares. Like what it says in Rom 8: 28 that all things work out for good to those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose!

And as we prepare to move into Suntec, let it start with us that we begin to sanctify ourselves and be prepared not just physically, but also spiritually. God is looking for hearts that are ready, that are after Him. I want to challenge you, take some time to fast and pray this week. I’ll be fasting today, join me if you can. 

Amen!! 

SEW Zone Devotion_6

2011-02-28T09:36:00.001-08:00

Hi guys,

I hope that you had a great start to your week. Hope this week’s devotion will encourage some of you.

As I was worshipping in my Quiet Time this week, I just sense the peace of God in my life. The bible says that God speaks to us in a still small voice. Not only that, there’s a assurance that God gives to us, to “be STILL and KNOW that I am God”!

Very often in our daily lives, we may meet with people who are difficult to handle or insensitive. Or maybe, our plans are going awry and things are just not right no matter what you do. Our very first instinct is to REACT and try to work things out. Instead of trusting in God, we tend to trust more in our own abilities to make things work. This may often lead to frustration. But as I was worshipping, God just reminded me to learn to be STILL in every situation, because of a simple fact. He is my God and if God is for me, who can me against me? Every step of my life has already been directed by Him, for all things work out for good to those who love Him!

It’s not easy to be STILL, but it’s very important for us to cultivate this habit. Learn to REACH out to God, instead of REACT-ing to your situations. Though it tarries, but God’s Word will never return to Him void. Knowing God is an acquired experiential knowledge, and not simply head knowledge. Make an effort, to seek Him and receive a daily encounter, a daily Rhema Word from Him to start your day!

The bible says in 1 Thess 5: 16 – 18

Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

3 things that we need to learn to do:
• Rejoice ALWAYS
• Pray WITHOUT CEASING
• In EVERYTHING give thanks

That’s all for this week! Be blessed and in the week ahead, let’s practice these 3 things in 1 Thess 5: 16-18! Amen!

SEW Zone Devotion_5

2011-02-28T09:35:00.004-08:00

Dear all,

As I start today’s devotion post, I just wanna say Happy Friendship Day! It’s a bit late, but still, I really appreciate each and everyone of you for giving me a chance to be your friend! 

We are in the season of LOVE, so for today, I want to share with you from Rev 2: 4-5.

Rev 2: 4-5
Nevertheless I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lampstand from its place – unless you repent.

Even as we celebrate V-day or Friendship Day with our loved ones, let us also take some time to evaluate our LOVE for our God who so loved us that He gave his only Son to die on the cross for us. As one preacher said, it’s ok if God had many sons, and He just have to give one of His sons to die on the cross. But God loved us so much that He gave His ONLY Son for us! So how much do we love God?

In these 2 verses, it talks about the church of Ephesus who have left their first love. In the same way, let’s also ask ourselves if we have left our first love for God. In the midst of our busyness, in our struggles with our FYPs, projects, assignments, work politics, work stress, have we also left our first love? Do we still enjoy spending time with God? Does this phrase still mean the same to you – “One day in Your courts is better than a thousand days in the world”? Have we forgotten how to trust and believe in God for His promises to us?

It’s very easy for us to leave our first love if we do not guard it well. It applies to me as well. But we must LEARN to remember where we have fallen, to repent and do the first works! If you ask me, what are our first works? It might differ for each one of you. Maybe it’s to pick up the guitar and start to worship. Maybe it’s to serve God more by availing your time for Him. Maybe it’s to seek God in the morning daily when you wake up. But let’s make it a point that we will come back to our first love and do the first works!

I want to share this real life example with you. Pst Bill Wilson – If you have not heard about him, do pick up his books and read. Pst Bill started his children’s ministry with driving the bus around to fetch the children to church. He believes in staying where the action is (he stays in a ghetto, with all the drug addicts, the outcasts of society etc), to stand in the gap between the living and the dead. Over the years, even as his ministry begins to grow, he never leaves this first work of driving the bus to fetch the children to church. To him, this is one thing that keeps him sane, and remind him of why he is doing and continuing this work of God. To put things into perspective for you, last Christmas, Pst Bill’s church had a total attendance of 150,000 children, in 3 different locations. Despite all that, he always chose to make it a point that whenever he can, he will drive the bus around to fetch these little ones to church before he rushes off to preach.

In a lunch that he had with Pst Eileen and some of the staff last Monday in Singapore, he was asked what kept him going all these years (and he’s already 60 years old, survived 3 gun shot wounds coz he was mugged, while staying in the ghetto, beaten up, thrown off a building, survived a plane crash before). Something he said really made an impact on me.

“Our commitment must be STRONGER than our emotion!” – Pst Bill Wilson

And this is so true for us. Our commitment to God must always be stronger than our own emotion. As much as our flesh tries to come against us, we must learn to crucify our flesh and be committed to God, to do the first works and come back to our first love! And friends, I want to encourage you, let’s choose to be committed to God in everything we do! Amen!

SEW Zone Devotion_4

2011-02-28T09:35:00.003-08:00

Hi guys,
For this week, I just want to share with you this chapter that I’m meditating on. I feel that in our daily challenges, this is a good reminder of how God wants us to live our life and handle situations in our lives, especially in Vs 9-16. We always say that “it’s easier said than done”, “you wouldn’t understand what we are going through”, “you can’t believe what happened” etc, but I want to assure you that God knows what you are going through. And God says in verse 3 that He has given to each one of us a measure of faith. And with this faith, we can learn to trust God that He’s in control. We simply need to obey and play our part (Vs 9-16). And Vs 21 sums it all, let’s be OVERCOMERS in Christ!
Romans 12
1 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. 2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. 3 For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. 4 For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, 5 so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. 6 Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; 7 or ministry, let us use it in our ministering; he who teaches, in teaching; 8 he who exhorts, in exhortation; he who gives, with liberality; he who leads, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness. 9 Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. 10 Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; 11 not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; 12 rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; 13 distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. 14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. 16 Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. 17 Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. 18 If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. 19 Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,”[a] says the Lord. 20 Therefore

“ If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
If he is thirsty, give him a drink;
For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.”

21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Be blessed!

SEW Zone Devotion_3

2011-02-28T09:35:00.001-08:00

Hi all,

For this week, I would like to share with you 1 Pet 5: 2-4. I’ve been thinking what does this really mean to be a shepherd. All of us can be a shepherd if we choose to be. Who are our ‘sheep’ then? For some of you, it’s the people that you’re leading in your service, in your visitation. For the helpers, you are a teacher/shepherd to the little ones. And we know from Pro 22: 6 that we are meant to be the one that leads the child in the right way.

Pro 22: 6 – Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it.

So what does it mean to be a shepherd? It’s takes maybe about 6-9 months to be a leader (serve regularly, be faithful, accountable and willing to be discipled), but it takes a much longer time to be a shepherd! We are not perfect and it’s not easy to be a good shepherd, but we have our Chief Shepherd, Jesus. And we can learn from Him.

In Vs 2 -3, it say, “Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly, not for dishonest gains but eagerly; nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock”

Focus on the sheep that is among you first, even if it’s just 2-3 kids, be faithful in the little things, and God honors that. Most importantly, as we serve as overseers, as their shepherds, we should not do it out of compulsion, but willingly. To me, this is the most important criteria of being a shepherd. We were sinners, but Jesus our shepherd died on the cross for us willingly. Did we deserve it? Definitely not, but He still did it willingly. I pray that in all your works, that you will do it out of a willing heart.

“Not for dishonest gains but eagerly” – In all that we serve/do, we are not seeking to gain gratitude, favors or blessings. But in all that we do, serve eagerly, going the extra mile. That’s being a shepherd! Serving beyond expectations!

“Being examples to the flock” - To be a shepherd, we need to lead by example to our flock!

Delegating work works, provided the one delegating works, too! – Robert Half

In the same way, if we do not lead by example, how would the flock know how to follow? Thus, I would like to challenge each one of you, be a good role model to your flock! It’s easy for me to tell you to study the Word more this year, but I must first challenge myself to do it. That’s the very reason why I choose to commit to writing devotions to you!

Finally, in Vs 4, it says “and when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that does not fade away”.

Every often, when we serve, in our own natural mind, we wish that there will be people who appreciates what we do. I always think in this manner too. But deep down in my heart, I know that even if no one appreciates me, God does. And I know as long as I continue to do what I can to be a good shepherd, one day, I will receive the crown of glory that does not fade away!

I pray that you will be blessed by this sharing! Looking forward to hearing from you guys! 

SEW Zone Devotion_2

2011-02-28T09:34:00.000-08:00

Hi guys,

Just want to share with you guys from 1 Pet 4: 7-11 this week.

Vs 7: But the end of all things is at hand; therefore be serious and watchful in your prayers.

How’s your prayer life? Is prayer an integral part of your life? Like what Pst Phil preached over e weekend, let’s not just ‘pray’ every now and then, but set aside a time to seek God amidst our busyness daily.

Vs 8-9: And above all things have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins” Be hospitable to one another without grumbling

Another word for “fervent” (adj) in the dictionary is enthusiasm. In our serving, in our communications with people in our workplace/school, let’s be enthusiastic in the other person’s life! Try to know and understand from another perspective.

In everything that we do, let’s do it out of love. That’s what I feel is being hospitable. One of the key thing here is also to do it without grumbling. Very often, we tend to grumble/murmur about why things are not the way we would want it to be. But we do not know the real reason(s) behind it.

For eg, if someone didn’t reply your SMS/Email, you will tend to assume the negative. Sometimes it could be simply that it slipped off the person’s mind, or something that has happened that we are unaware.

Thus, 2 simple facts about communications: Communications needs to be positive (Appreciation is a powerful tool of communication) and Communication requires repetition (It’s not necessarily a bad thing).

Vs 10-11: As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God. If anyone speaks, let him speak as the oracles of God. If anyone ministers, let him do it as with the ability which God supplies, that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.

All of us have a gift from God, be it spiritual or temporal, ordinary or extraordinary, it’s up to us to minister it to one another (in other words, to be used for the common good-the people around us). And when we use our gift, let’s do it with the ability that God supplies, to do it humbly and diligently, giving all glory to Him.

Thus my challenge to you this year, is to be serious in your prayer life, to serve and do all things out of fervent love and to use your gifts and talents to minister to the people around you. And through it all, be the light that shines forth in your respective marketplace, that in all things God may be gloried through Jesus Christ!

Amen!

SEW Zone Devotion_1

2011-02-28T09:33:00.000-08:00

One of my goals this year is that I want to really share the Word with each and everyone of you. I understand the busyness and time constraints that we all have, therefore, I thought that doing it through email would help. Of course, that doesn’t mean that we wouldn’t meet as a zone. There will still be zone meetings from time to time! But most importantly, I want to encourage each one of you to learn to share and edify one another with the Word this year.

2 Tim 4: 2 – Preach the Word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort, with all longsuffering and TEACHING!

All of us can preach and share the WORD, you don’t have to be a master preacher to do that. Sharing your revelations will inspire and encourage another person! 

Here’s what I would like to share with each of you:

Daniel 1

As we start this year, I really pray for each one of us to start the year well, on the right foot and be in the right position for the year ahead! In Dan 1, we know about the story of Nebuchadnezzar, king of Babylon who besieged and took over.

In Vs 4, we know that the king called for young men, who were gifted in all wisdom, and had the ability to serve. These young men were to be trained for 3 years before they might serve before the king.

In Vs 8, Daniel and his friends are allocated a daily provisions but yet, they purposed in their heart that they would not defile themselves with the king’s portions.

In Vs 20, when they were examined by the king, they were found to be ten times better than all the magicians and astrologers who were in all his realm.

Friends, as I was reading this whole chapter, God brought to me a new perspective of looking at the verses listed above. One of the key reasons why Daniel and his friends were chosen to be trained was that they had the ability to serve (gifts and talents). Each one of them had their talents and similarly, like us, we have different talents. Yizhen and Patuma is good at art, but I’m not. Valarie can save people (trained in St John) etc. We all have different talents which can be a blessing to the people around us.

But we must first be CHOOSABLE! Even if you have talents but you are not willing to use it, no one else will know. Then of course you will not be CHOOSABLE! As we start this brand new year, I want to challenge each one of you to make yourself CHOOSABLE before God. Showcase your talents and use it to glorify God! Speak to me about it if you feel that there’s an area that you think that you might be able to contribute, or even do it better! Similarly, in your workplace/school etc, only when you step out of your boundaries, and make yourself CHOOSABLE, your boss or colleagues might not know that you are capable of doing something better. Let’s not be bounded by fears as we start the year, but let’s walk each step by FAITH!

Next, what Daniel and his friends did was to CONSECRATE themselves. Yes, the delicacies might be tempting, but they made the decision to CONSECRATE themselves and be set apart for God’s work, even though they are in the ‘marketplace’. In the same way, in this year, do go back to the basics and CONSECRATE yourselves – PRAYER, WORD of GOD. Get a fresh revelation daily from God and you can use it to edify your friends, colleagues and family members.

In 2 Tim 2: 21, the bible states that if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work. One of the ways that you can be useful for the Master is to edify and teach the Word of God!

Finally, as we make ourselves CHOOSABLE and CONSECRATE our lives for the glory of God, God’s blessing will be poured all over us and when we are ‘examined’, be it in the workplace/school/ministry, we will be found to be ten times better in all the realm! The God I know never shortchanges. Never. That’s the God that I know. And I believe that we serve the same God!

I pray for each one of you that 2011 will the best year YET for you! As we set ourselves apart for God and go back to the Word of God and prayer, I pray that we will receive a fresh manna daily! As we begin to make ourselves choosable in all aspects of our life, we will indeed be found faithful of using our talents and God will begin to multiply whatever we have sowed. I pray for God’s abundant blessings to come upon each on you! Be blessed! Amen!

Looking forward to hear from you as well! Will make it a point to try and share weekly! 

Cheers!

1st Post of the Year

2011-02-28T09:32:00.000-08:00

This will be the 1st post of the year! And many more to come!

I have decided that I shall upload my weekly devotions with my zone, right here! But i do wonder if there is still anyone reading!

If you are, do let me know!

Enjoy the devotions and be blessed!

Godly contentment

2010-11-15T16:57:00.001-08:00

Godly contentment is great gain.

I believe in that. In life, we are always and constantly praying and hoping that things will be better, that we will have more $$$, go overseas more often, wish we are smarter etc. But for me, I believe in e statement that I made.

Godly contentment isn't about having a 'heck care' attitude, but more so of resting assured in God's promises. Knowing His Word and trusting His heart, believing that according to His timing, all things will work out for good to those who love Him.

Maybe that's why if you see me, I'm always laughing and smiling. Not really stressed on e outside/inside (except certain days of e month)! Hahahaha!

Is it really about being ＇看开＇? I used to say that. But now, I think it isn't really so. It's about Godly contentment. I may not be as rich as I wish to be, or as smart as my friends are, BUT God makes perfect my life.

I thank God for an awesome gf whose smile and laughter never fails to cheer me up!

I thank God for a job that I look forward to go work daily, coz I know I'm making a difference in the lives of people!

I thank God for placing friends in my life who influences and impacts my life positively!

I thank God for a cool zone with cool people who works and plays together!

I thank God for an awesome church, that changed my life, my direction and destiny!

I thank God for every single day in my life!

:)
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Reservist

2010-09-13T19:16:00.000-07:00

It's reservist again! This time round, it's a High Key event which spans over 2 weeks, and that means I am going to miss JT a lot!!!

Thank God for favor, I can meet her up on Wed during the PM, and Fri when I book out and also Sat after cohesion training! Sun I'll get to spend some precious time w her before going back to camp!

Next week is not going to be easy. Will be outfield for 3D2N and not much access to my phone. Gosh!

But this ICT allows us to realise how impt we r in each other lives, how it entwined together because God have placed us together. I'm thankful for a wonderful gf, who pretty, sweet and awesome to have! I'm e envy of so many ppl! I pretty sure abt that!

Dear, hang on there k? After everything, we will have pretty a lot of time to hang out together, go shopping and eat eat eat! :) I miss u lots! Love ya! :) hugs!
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My Wishlist

2010-08-26T03:39:00.000-07:00

This is a list of items that I'm reminding myself that I got to get pretty soon. Hahaha!

1) Shoes
2) Jeans
3) Clothes - It's never enough!
4) Bag - My crumpler looks really old now!
5) Glasses - Time to change a new look
6) Hair-cut - Cut of my TAIL!
7) Wallet - I'm bored of mine!
8) Books! - I need some good reads!
9) Money!!!! - Most impt of all, so that I can bring HER for nice dates!

Hahahahhahahahahahahahaha!!!!
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the next phase of life

2010-07-22T09:12:00.000-07:00

I nearly forgot what's my log-in ID and password. That just goes to show how rusty this blog has became. Hahaha!

Guess I need to start blogging again. I will try.

Anyway, a lot of things has happened in my life and I'm glad that I have survived well thus far. :) I'm well into my next phase of life, starting work full time in May right after my exams. Holidays? Not for me. But I promise myself that I want to save up for a nice holiday soon! Maybe Taiwan again? Hahaha!

Despite stepping into the next phase of my life much earlier, the official date of graduation was far from it. I'm glad that 21st July marked the official transition. It wasn't without much 'difficulty' before I managed to attend the ceremony, and I'm glad that I managed to do so!

It's been 4 long years in SMU! It have been a bittersweet experience, and if there's anything that I do regret, it's that I have traded much of my Uni life for what I'm doing now. However, I'm still pretty happy about it! I may have had more friends, other than my dos amigos, but I'm still thankful to God for whatever that have gone through these 4 years.

In year 1, I mugged for exams in library, studied hard and competed for higher GPA with my friends. I learnt how to speak confidently in front of a class to do presentation, and start to develop my own style (no memorising of scripts and just crapping my way through)!

In year 2, I guess that maybe I shouldn't study that hard. Is GPA really that impt? I concluded that what matters is that I'm happy. I chose my major. Did what I like, Marketing and Operations Management. Made more friends, did more projects and learnt even more.

In year 3, I concluded, GPA doesn't matter any more. I can't achieve a CUM LAUDE at the least, but still, I can easily enjoy my studies, do crazy presentations, add on the fluff! I love advertising, it opened my eyes to another world out there. I thought, this might be another choice of my career that I might explore. It's interesting. It's fun.

In year 4, I decided that since GPA doesn't matter, I should just choose modules that I like, though I know that I wouldn't do well - SPANISH! I thank God for that, because in that decision, I found my dos amigos! Year 4 was relaxing, no mugging, no stress, just pure fun, despite the minor controversy. I'm still thankful!

The past 4 years have reinforced my belief, of trusting in God and allowing Him to work miracles in me(namely my results). The experience that I have earned in these 4 years enabled me to think critically, think fast and react even faster. I thank God for all the friends that he has placed in my life. They made uni life different and interesting for me! Cheers people! And I'm glad too, that somewhere along the road in this Uni life, God placed Queen in my life! Hehe! Love ya! Thanks for your support and understanding all these while!

AC2010

2010-05-21T05:45:00.000-07:00

AC2010 preparation has been really challenging, but I know that it's gonna be good. Curriculum is over, FBPP currently, before all the services next. Wow! Time really just flies by.

I can't wait for June to come, when her exams are over and we can start hanging out again without thinking so much. Looking forward to the great days ahead. The light is at the end of the tunnel. Persevere on! Jia you! I know you can do it.

I need to start thinking and planning too.

Sometimes, things aren't so straightforward, relationships aren't so simple. It ain't easy to do what it takes to be done. To do what is right. To constantly ask what's better, and what can be done to make things the way it should be. Experience really helps a lot.

grades out

2010-04-30T10:14:00.001-07:00

Yea, my final exams ended. But, I ain't very happy with my results, though I kinda expected it. Still, I thought I might have a surprise. Hahaha!

True indeed, I got my surprise. Nah, it doesn't affect my GPA that much, but still, I broke my record! I got the worst grade ever in SMU with my C- for Spanish. So cool yea? Hahaha, it just reaffirms me that language is strictly not for me.

Hmmm, I guess it's over, time to look forward and not backward. I am learning. I want to learn more. I think that I am constantly being moulded. It's a challenge, yes it is. But I guess I will overcome.

Study hard dear, I know you can do it! Cheering you on!

Journey to the West!

2010-04-16T16:17:00.001-07:00

It's 7.06am and I'm already out of the house. Gotta travel by train to JW today! Haha. It's quite a nice train ride, reminds me of the days of SOT! Where I would wake up super early just to prepare for school, to reach early and book seats for my team. Wow, time really flies, I wonder how many of them will be around for AC2010.

19th April seems to be approaching real soon. No, I'm not scared of taking e exam, just that it seems so unreal that 4 years of my university life have just slipped by. I enjoyed every moment of it, that though I secretly wish that time would pass by faster, it seems ironic now that I'm wishing for it to slow down.

I thank God for the friends that God has placed in my life. But one thing I regret is that I failed to develop many long-lasting friendships. There's plenty of nice people around, but I guess that I've been pretty much too busy to hang out with them. Maybe that's why too that I came to believe that friends enter our lives only to leave our lives some time later. Will there be long-lasting friendships? I wonder. Not friends that you talk to and say hi and bye 5 years down the road, but friends whom you call friends, that you confide in.

But at least, I thank God for a good job and a 'family' that accepts me. Sometimes, fairness is not measured in the things you are asked to do(if you're supposed to do), but in the things you give and do for others. I guess I have learnt to give more, even at no return, no gratitude. And I think it's good!

Dear, projects and exams are coming soon! Jia you jia you! I can't do much for you, but I'll always be around to support you and do anything that you need my help in. No matter how busy, you know that I'll make time for you. Coz you matter! Gam-ba-Teh!!!! Praying for you and believing in good grades for you! Excel and exceed expectations!!! Cheers! Love ya!
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Keep walking

2010-04-08T20:01:00.001-07:00

I know I'm a little late, but better late than never. Easter's over finally, one of those times that I'm so tired after a big day, to the extend that my body is on the verge of falling sick. But thank God that I'm up and running yet again. It's not been an easy big day, I did 3 main services and 4 small services. Thank God for 319 kids that came! Awesomeful!!!! (Awesome + Wonderful)

Just reflecting on things I heard and things in my surroundings recently. And thus the title of this entry - Keep Walking! Many a times, when things don't go our way, we will mumble, get upset, request to take a break and re-organise our life. But more than taking a break, I think it's really important that we keep walking. Through it all, that's how we grow.

It's quite sad at times to hear of people wanting to take breaks for such reasons. Does that mean that you're taking a break from God, a break from your calling, a break from your very reason of existence. Maybe I'm too extreme, or I'm a workaholic. Breaks are necessarily to rest and recuperate. We do need to feed our soul too.

Do we choose the easy way out? Would you walk by the narrow way?

When things are not going right, what's your first thought?

I am in a passing phase of my life. I know things will simply get better as the days go pass. I trust and I believe in my God. I know I will arise.
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Easter Big Day

2010-04-02T15:27:00.001-07:00

It's 620am. The last big CCH service is gonna happen in a few hours time. I guess we're all physically tired, but deep down, I think that each one of us is just simply very thankful that we can be a part of this great team!

Indeed, every joint supplies. Through this big day, I've learnt to tap into the talents of my people. Some may be young, some may be newbie, but each play an important role in this team. It ain't the easiest big day for me, juggling a lot of things, but it's definitely one of the best for me.

Don't despise the days of small beginnings, and don't despise eveery good work that you're doing. They might be small, but it's significant! Everything that you do that is according to the will of God is worthy!

Jia you people! Jia you dear! I know you can do it! Coz you're my smart, pretty, multi-talented gf! :) love ya!!!!
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The last days in SMU

2010-03-28T18:43:00.001-07:00

On e way to SMU now, to start the last week of my SMU life. After which, I have only 1 more report submission, and 2 exams.

It's been a tiring and emotional 4 years I would say. Being upset with free-riders, being free-riders, I've been through all that. What I guess what I have learnt most is not in the knowledge I gained, but the experiences I own. Grades do matter, right at e start, but I came to the realization that when I learn to let go, good grades will come. There's no need to cut throats to get your A+'s.

I'm thankful to God, for placing awesome friends in my midst. Sad to say, I do not have many in SMU, but those that I do have, they are more than enough. They are e most understanding people, my long-suffering buddies, my friends. Hahaha!

Sounds so emotional! I have learnt well. The school fees I paid, have been well paid. It "should" give me an average GPA of 3.3/4.0! Hahaha!

I'm gonna enjoy my last week of school! My most challenging week thus far too, with 3 big services, 2 small services and numerous matters to handle! I'm looking forward to my breakthrough. Though I'm tired physically, I will not grow weary! God, I pray for strength and wisdom to last through this week! Amen!

MPM

2010-02-24T23:44:00.001-08:00

It's e 3rd day of MPM and it just gets better. Feels really good to be starting the day with God.

Really liked the worship song today, a pretty old song and it brought back nice memories of e past.

Holy Spirit come in power,
Change my heart,
I want to live for You my Lord.

I still remember the days when I cried out to God to change my life, and live according to His will. As I look back now, I'm really amazed by what God had done to me.

Had a talk with an expert about ADHD, ASD and Dyslexia. One of the key take-away for me is that we need to change the way we look at them. More often than not, we will get angry and upset over children like that. Maybe all they need is a little more patience, a little more love and their condition can be improved, especially for children with ADHD.

the olden days...

2010-02-10T08:48:00.000-08:00

It's a long and lazy night. I feel tired and sleepy, but I'm not sleeping just yet. CNY has officially started. Classes has ended for now, will only resume next wednesday. I have tons of work to do, but I'm not doing it. All I want to do, is to rest and relax and be a couch potato - a skinny one though.

So I'm just blog-hopping around. As I read some of my friend's blog, other than knowing that I have aged, I feel that all of them has grown so much in their own lives. In God, they have achieved so much more, maybe more than they could have imagined.

One found her dream job, One busy serving God, juggling studies and everything. Whenever I see them around, they carry this joy within and they are simply doing great! I'm just so proud of them!

Indeed, there are so many things to thank God for, all we need to do is to open up our eyes and SEE!!!

First post of 2010

2010-01-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

It's been pretty long since I blogged. Ever since the holidays at the end of the last year, it seems like this year started on a bullet train. Never ending work and increasing expectations. To be honest, I'm enjoying every moment of it, just that I'm feeling a bit tired. Ha! Could be partly due to the fact that it's been a while since I exercised. But still, I'm really glad to be enjoying my last semester of school. A nice combination of modules. and new and nice friends that I have made. I think these new friendships might have the potential to go a bit further. Haha! It's always good to make more friends in school I think. Considering that I'm hardly in school, friends that I can truly call them friends are less than the number of fingers I have. Yup, we will see how it goes.

It's a challenging January. But I'm sure Feb will be great. Life is just going to get faster and faster! I can expect it coming. I know, that I will start to have greater responsibilities and expectations, but I know that I tend to thrive under pressure too.

I was just thinking and pondering, what goal do I have for this year. To sum it all up, just like what Pst shared. HAPPY. I want my girlfriend to be HAPPY. I want all my leaders and helpers to be HAPPY. I want to be infectious, with my HAPPINESS. If anything matters more, I want to be HAPPY in GOD! And I believe that all things will just fall into place. Be HAPPY people!

place for comfort

2009-12-14T10:13:00.000-08:00

I'm back, with an update. at a freaking time. 213am in the morning. Exams are over, but work's overflowing. If I had a choice, I would have wished that I have graduated. No more worries about my modules next semester, but then again, I have only 3 slack modules to take next semester I think! Hahahaha!

I'm in a tough balancing act now, trying to balance work and rest! I need sleep, plenty of it. Actually, I just want to dream, be a dreamer, have a dream team, but it ain't that easy to do so.

I have been disappointed at things recently, at certain people. And I have come to the realization, that I'm not someone who scolds people. Rather than scolding them, what I feel is heartache within. It hurts to know the decision that they made, and even more so the reasons why they do it. But I guess that's why people are given free choices, and if everyone knows how to make the right decision, we wouldn't need the grace of God anymore. All i can do, is to keep praying for them. Sometimes, I think that it might be God's test for me, when all seems over, all I could do is to depend on Him. And He will come to pass and make things happen for me.

I need you God. Draw me closer into your embrace!

I'm excited about two dates right now. 18th Dec and 27th Dec. Ordered, booked and awaiting. Ha!

Clue - Reach office early and on time! Don't be a sleepy head this week!

*Speaking in parables, only one person will understand*

2009-11-10T08:21:00.001-08:00

My mind's spinning with lots of thoughts for the past few days. Yup, so many things. Haha! As I visited the children today, walking through the streets with a slight pain in my ankle, I thought about the countless VLs out there doing the same thing as me. The next thought in my mind is that of my friends in school. I really wonder what is the motivating thing that keeps us doing what we do weekly, going around visiting the children. Giving up our free time, just to do the work of God.

And I thought about something I've learnt last time - Others can, I can't.

Hmmm, it's a challenge to balance the things in my life. Work's a challenge, school's a priority, relationship's a desire, and God's a love. Pretty a lot of things yea? Haha. But I know that all things will work out for those who love Him!

I have been thinking about reading books, but the only thing is, the books i want to read are not text books!!!!

blogging..

2009-11-02T08:40:00.000-08:00

I'm suppposed to be working on my report but I'm procastinating. Pretty lazy to work on it. Went for a run, ate an ice-cream, drank a cup of coffee and now I'm blogging. Ok, I'll get back to work right after this.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot recently. Thinking about how my life has turned out, and how it would turn out. Seems like God has in store great plans for my life, so many things that I can hardly imagine. Some times, I do wonder why am I chosen, and not someone else? Is it because of "by chance", like what the world would say? I beg to differ. I think I'm chosen by God, for a purpose and time like this. I still remember that when I started my blog, the blog's name was Living for Jesus. and the following paragraph is what I wrote to describe myself when I started the blog in 2004

Wat abt me? i dun really know n i cant really describe... born into tis world 19yrs ago on a special day... born for a purpose, n currently trying my best to fulfill it... now is e time, to rise to my potential, to achieve wat im supposed to... nothing will stop me coz im living for JESUS!!!

Yea, I need to enlarge my capacity, to rise up to my potential and achieve what I'm suppose to achieve. From now to June 2010, it will be my personal test. I will arise!

And before I end this post, I just wanna say, I love you dear, you're the best and most pretty girl in God's creation! ha! I'm blessed to have you fighting with me, believing in me, and going from glory to glory with me. I'm simply so proud of what you're doing, and I know you are capable, maybe even more capable than me in achieving greater things for God. Let's do it together and bring our zones to a whole new level. I know you can, and I know I can, because we both serve the same GREAT BIG DADDY GOD!

Loving You and you always! :)

revived...

2009-10-26T06:01:00.000-07:00

This blog has been abandoned, deserted for the longest time. Not that I do not want to blog, but I simply have no time to do so, or, I’m lazy to blog. Haha! The latter is true more often than not.

So at the COMMAND of my girlfriend, here I am to clear up the blog and remove the cobwebs….

Life has been pretty busy and tiring for me. The biggest big day ended with an awesome turnout but that’s not the end. We had the biggest wedding of the year that followed straight after and man, it was awesome but super duper tiring. I simply zonked out after which, only to realize that piles of work from school have been stacking up. Hahaa!

But, in the midst of it all, I’m glad that I managed to spend quality time with Joyce, celebrating my birthday – simple but nice! Haha! Chilling out with her friends, catching a movie etc. haha! Somehow, I just feel like I’m falling deeper in love with YOU every single day! J

Lots of thoughts were going on in my mind during this period of time as well. That, I will blog about it another time. Haha!

back once again....

2009-09-24T18:20:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a long while since I'm back here. Time to clean off some dust..... haha! Blogging in class, means I'm either really sleepy, or really bored. but then, this time round, i'm both sleepy and bored! haha!

It's been a real tiring and stretching 3 weeks, because of the big day. I think I have aged.. haha! My legs are aching, my body is aching. But my spirit is strong though! haha! I need a hibernation day! a day to sleep and simply do nothing. I'm looking forward to it! haha!

few more days to go, i think it will be a nice day! ha!

Anyway, Oct is going to be an exciting month! all the activities lined up and planned! haha. Hopefully you will enjoy it!

Back to class, and chionging for my 1159, and 10000 kiddos! wooohooo!!

just for you

2009-08-22T10:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Joyce,

This is purely written just for you. Though it's a public blog, I'm still going to write. Ha ha! Will be flying to China in a few hours time, and though it's just 3D2N, I'm really gonna miss you lots! I will miss your laughter, seeing you smile with a big wide grin. I will miss hearing your voice! ha ha ha. and of course, that means chatting with you!

Do take good care of yourself these few days when I'm not by your side. Take care of what you eat and don't stay up too late slacking in front of the devil's box ok? And remember what you promised me? If your back still hurts, please go make an appointment to see the doctor. I will pei you go to the doctor when I'm back. Yea, don't let me worry about you in China ok?

I'm really going to miss you. I will pray for you and may God speak to you about your future. I'm sure He has something awesome in store for you. For all things WORK OUT FOR GOOD to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose! God has a future and a hope for YOU!

Jia you jia you ok? Be strong and healthy every day!

Love ya dear!

Cheers,
Eng Wee

my past 5 months

2009-08-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

My past 5 months have been the most eventful 5 months in my whole life. I wouldn't say that it's easy, but it's definitely something that I will never exchange for ever. Now I know why Joyce said, that SOT is something that we can talk about for life.

Over the months, I feel that I have grown. In terms of knowledge, EQ, and wisdom. My team members have lavished so much praise on me that it makes me blush. But seriously, from the bottom of my heart, I have learnt so much from them. Laying all they have back home in China, and giving 5 months of their life, coming to a foreign land, to consecrate themselves just for God.

I've learnt tolerance.
I've learnt how to handle people.
I've learnt how to speak and type Chinese pretty well.
I've learnt how to communicate with people with confidence.
I've learnt how to draw everyone together.
I've learnt how to macro and micro manage.
I've learnt how to delegate.
I've learnt how to trust.
I've learnt how to believe in someone.
I've learnt what it means to go the extra mile for someone.
I've learnt about unconditional love.
I've learnt about the true meaning of friendships.
I've learnt how to cook "Ke Le Ji".
I've learnt what it means to sacrifice.
I've learnt from each and everyone of them.
I've learnt about leading by example.

Though we are so different, the youngest being 20 years old, and the oldest at 60 years old. We bonded together, stay together and will always be together. Not in distance, but always in heart. We may be at different corners of the world, but our hearts are united as one. Fighting for one cause that we believe in. For Jesus! I thank God for each one of them playing a part to make this the best team that I can ever lead.

I love Team 13. I love each and everyone of you! Chun Ji, Zhang Rong, Lulu, Qing Lin, Liu Yu, Xue Zhen, Zhuoling, Cao Yu, Ai Mei, Susan, Alex, Veroy, Regina, Javius, Nicodemus, Ji Guo, Audrey, Lik Hie, Yu Chean, Fook Seng, Han Peng, Pin Shin, Zhang Ling, Yanghui - each one of you is so awesome! my best team 13 always!

the condition of the heart

2009-08-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

I haven been blogging for the longest time, partly because I'm lazy, but also because I do not know what to blog about. Hmmm, SOT is really ending real soon. 7 more days of classes and that's it. I am starting to miss my team and am trying to make my best effort to bless and spend time with them. Times like this makes me wonder why time is so tight.

I will really miss all the fun that I have had with my team for the past 4.5 months.

I've been meditating on this 5 words for the longest time. The condition of the heart. There are so many outward things that we can do, but at the end of the day, it's the condition of your heart that matters. Out of all the motives and reasons, what is the one thing that causes you to do the things that you do? Is your heart healthy today?

The heart is vital, controls the blood and pumps oxygen around our body. If your heart is not healthy, every other part of your body is affected, and you might just have a heart attack. Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. the heart is the motivator of our actions.

Maybe this is too cheem for you. Let me simply it. Ask yourself this questions. Is my heartbeat the same of God's? For what reasons are my heart beating? - wrong reasons that gets you all excited or the will of God? What do you think God will say when He looks at your heart - Man looks at outward appearances but God looks at our heart. If you're able to give a positive reply to all these 3 questions, I suppose that you have a healthy heart.

I'm learning the meaning of coming to the end of myself, to reach the start of His life for me.

I'm really looking forward to the 10th Aug. Morning PM. Breakfast. Surprises (if i can). Mini spree (if it happens). A time to rest and relax. and to celebrate a blessed year with my dearest Joyce! :)

Lots of thoughts are racing in my mind. I wanna make things happen. I need wisdom.

Spiritual post.

2009-07-14T08:51:00.000-07:00

It's just 4 more weeks of SOT left. For me, it's 3 weeks, as I will be away for reservist for the whole of next week. Which makes it quite sianz for me. Coz I'm missing out on all the fun and the exciting lesson with Pst Kong next week!! grrr... Anyway, think I will really miss my team when SOT ends. Seems like all things will come to an end, but I pray that our friendship will never end. I have been challenged, and blessed by them. Learnt so much from them, and I'm always so thankful for each of them. To them, I'm like an angel, though I know that I'm not, just doing my part as their team leader. Harhar! They are truly the angels! One thing for sure, because of them, I can speak more fluently in Chinese, and preach in Chinese with a bit of help! cool!

Was mightly blessed over the last week and this week! Had Dr A.R Bernard and this week's Dr Joshua Hong from Korea. Yea! Awesome men of God. I've been meditating on this for a while. Relationship precedes ministry. What does that really mean? What a thin fine line it is to be firm and yet pastoral. Does being firm affect your relationship? If then, to protect the relationship, what happens if it affects the ministry? At the end of the day, I rmbr what someone told me - if all else is taken away 10 years down the road, maybe all we have left is the relationship that we have with one another. Quite true.

Taken to another point of view. Relationship precedes ministry (ministering). To outreach, 1st build the relationship. To evangelize, 1st build the relationship. No relationship = No revival. What connects you to people and draws them to you is your relationship with them! I'm working on it. Believing in the breakthrough for my zone.

Dr Joshua's lectures gave me lots of quotes to think about. So here's some of them.

The biggest present of life is the PRESENT (NOW) - treasure every second that you have now!

Everything conceivable is achievable.

Leadership is influence. Spiritual leadership = Inspirational influence.

And here's one for Dr A.R. Bernard.

Delegated authority should reflect the character of the leader.

A car can only have one driver. If all the people in the car tries to control the car, it will not travel in one direction. Maybe it would crash. So, be on the same page. same vision. same direction.

On a lighter note, Mr Bump came to life. it jumped out of the key chain and grew bigger and fatter. and true to his name. he bumped around and broke both his hands. Thank God for nitty fingers that saved the day. "Operation save Bump Bump" was successful the next day and both hands are reattached. and Mr Bump lives yet another day! ha ha ha! I wonder when will he get into another accident again. I pray with all my heart that its owner will be safe and strong!

I'm in a reflective mood. I desire for so much more. Lead me I pray!

thankful heart

2009-06-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

There are so many kinds of different types of hearts. Red heart, black heart, thankful heart, small heart, big heart, tiny winy heart, enlarged heart. Today, I will just talk about two of them!

Thankful heart.

I have a thankful heart today. I'm thankful that Mr Bump has been found. Where have you been all these while? Don't ever go missing without telling us ok? And I'm thankful for the wonderful team 13 members that I have. They are my pride and joy. I'm thankful that they are really good cooks - learnt how to cook "ke le ji" (Coke chicken) today! I'm so gonna try it out! And I tell you, their dumplings are simply awesome! and to think that they said those that they have in China taste even better. I'm drooling. I really thank them for being such wonderful members and I'm glad that I am a part of this awesome team. We support one another, encourage one another and pray for one another. And I'm always so 'pai seh' by the praises that they have for me. To them, I'm the star. ha ha! I'm just so blessed by them! I love each and everyone of them. If there's anything that I will miss the most in SOT, it's them! ha ha ha! Thanks people! Zhang Rong, Lu lu, Zhuo Ling, Cao Yu, Chun Ji, Qing Lin, Liu Yu, Zhang Ling, Yanghui, Xue Zhen, Pin Shin, Fook Seng, Han Peng, Susan, Alex, Nicodemus, Ji Guo, Audrey, Lik Hie, Yu Qing, Ai Mei, Regina, Javius, Veroy!!!

Next up. A small heart.

I have been discussing about this with Joyce and I think that it's really scary to have a small heart. A small heart shows the ugly side of you. It makes people revoke. And I simply dislike people who have a small heart because they are very 'ji jiao'. It's so dangerous to have a small heart, as it limits your vision. You can't see beyond the condition of your heart. It will be blinded by unhappiness caused by the small heart. Thus, limiting your potential. Brethen, I beseech you, examine your hearts today. Enlarge your heart. Have a big heart! A big heart makes you happier. Things are simpler and easier. You begin to do things with willingness. And you delight in doing them. Remember this. Be willing to do it and do it willingly. If not, DON'T DO IT!

13 more days to go. Finalising the plans. Bookings to be made. Stuff to be printed. Woohoooo!!! :)

reflections

2009-06-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

So many things have happened over the last week. It's been a really long week and June is simply a month full of lots of activities. I have learnt so much over last week.

Camp was really fun, and anointed. God really came and did a great work in the lives of all these children! I'm simply so proud of each one of them, especially all those who stayed over for the 1st time, without their parents. Each one of them is so precious to God.

SOT is getting more challenging by the week, but I'm really something. More than the head knowledge, it's more of the heart knowledge, the attitude that we have. I'm learning to be stretched. I want to learn. God, come and increase my capacity.

It's just simply 2 months left of SOT. I will make the best of it.

Time really flies. And I'm simply amazed. Therefore it makes it even more important to make use of each minute, each second that we have. To make a difference in the life of someone. Impact the children one at a time.

Most importantly, I will cherish you, every moment that we spend together. Thanks for being the special one!

Await. Surprise on the way. 5th of July.

writer's block

2009-06-04T20:21:00.000-07:00

I have a big block in my head. Coz i have no idea what to write. For my assignment. For my work. So many things are competing for my attention. Ha!

Somehow, I wished that I could have a computer brain, process everything systematically. Ha! Went for visitation over e last 3 days, visited so many kids. Holidays meant that I can visit them anytime! ha! Cool.

Had a nice chat with one my newcomers this year. She's 13 year old, from China, super duper sensible girl. She's taking PSLE this year, but she's already asking me about how's life in university and thinking about what courses she can take in university!! I'm so amazed by her. For her exams this year, she was the 1st in her class, but she said she will be busy studying in June coz she's not the 1st in the whole level! WOW!!!!.

Was at the shift on Sunday and unpacking yesterday. And I realised what it means to have a servant heart. On Wed, I asked someone if he's helping out, his answer was, "It's at expo! so far". Yesterday, when I reached Expo at 5plus, I saw ONE guy, cleaning up and setting up the place. He was there since 4pm and he's the only ONE there representing their team. the faithful one.

I'm looking forward to 5th July. Plans are constantly being changed. ha ha! So many things to do man! What should take priority? Hee... So exciting? ha! we shall see.

Hope you liked the surprise then! Maybe it's expected again....... ha!

Random thoughts

2009-05-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

Random thoughts of the day:

Ask not what others can do for you, but ask what You can do for others!

SOT is not merely a test of knowledge, but also a test of YOUR character.

A focused mind is one that accomplishes much.

reflections

2009-05-14T08:20:00.000-07:00

I have been putting on my thinking cap for the past few days and pondering about quite a bit of stuff. They are pretty random and thus I have tried to classify them a bit. ha!

SOT

It's been an exciting journey so far with my team, blessed with wonderful members who are such blessings and a joy for me to lead them. I think I will really miss them when SOT ends. Oh man, I must be prosperous so that I can go to China to look for them next time!

I have learnt, that the potential behind people is often hidden. You never know what's in them till they're put to the test. I'm just blown away by my team members while we're having mock cg this week. They're simply awesome. I think it wouldn't be as fun if my team are all local students. I'm a blessed child of God to have each and every single one of them in my team.

I understood the meaning of being truly supportive and encouraging. This bunch of awesome people showed it to me.

My life

I was pondering, what really defines me, what am I good in? What can I do? What's my future going to hold out for me?

I want to be a person of influence, I want to be prosperous. How? I have no idea as of now. But I know that I need to step out in faith. I need to lean on God and allow Him to direct my paths.

Do I please God or please people? Do words of affirmation matter to me?

Ministry

It's a thin fine line between being pastoral and being firm. Managing it is not easy, but then, if it's easy, why am I still needed?

What can I contribute to this awesome team?

Random

I visited a child today, and I just felt that she's super blessed, cute, smart and very HAPPY! I really feel that a picture paints a thousands words. Her walls in her house are filled with her paintings, drawings and each of them are full of rainbow colors. Though it might not be a super big house, but I can sense the love of God in that place, and it beats having a large house void of love rite? Today's her birthday and I thank God that I was prompted to at least buy some nice sweets for the children before I started visiting. At least I'm not empty handed. Anyway, I was treated to a nice cupcake made by the mum. As I left, I wonder, what do I want to give to my child next time? I don't think grades and results matters. the journey matters more than the destination I guess.

Blessings

SOT days are days when blessings just keep pouring into my life. 1st, I'm blessed with a nice lunch just when I'm broke. And today, I received financial blessings from my SOT team member. And during mock cg this week, I'm blessed with the chance to preach and share in Chinese. And plenty of other small blessings. I will learn to count my blessings... :)

interesting observations and random stuff

2009-05-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy busy period for me. And it will continue to be so for the rest of May. And it all started on the 1st May when we had our Men's conference.

Observation - It's one of the times when you can see long queues outside the male toilet and yet no on the other side.

Observation - Hotdog eating and Sumo wrestling is not really MAN at all, according to Dr Allan Meyer. haa. It's pretty funny really, seeing guys chewing and slowly eating hotdogs on stage when it's supposed to be a competition.

Testimony - My God indeed provides, on a day when I thought I shall just have Oreo biscuits for lunch, He provided lunch for me thru my beloved team-mate from China.

And yea, this week, we're learning about moving in the gifts of the Holy Spirit. It's pretty fun and interesting to see how God moves! Being blindfolded and prophesying is fun stuff! Being prayed for is awesome too and I experienced both today! Tmr's gonna be fun!

Spending time with Joyce is great, though they are hard to come by, but I appreciate every minute that we spend together. That's why, it's called Precious Moments. ha!

It's gonna be a great time over the next few weeks. And I believe that my God will continue to provide! Amen!

Peter and Jesus and me

2009-05-04T08:18:00.000-07:00

After Simon Peter denied Jesus 3 times, and when Jesus came back, he asked Peter, "Do you love Me?"

He asked Peter 3 times.

3 times * 2 = 6 times!

Double the effort. "Couple" the meaning. Forever the love.

readings...

2009-05-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

All my results are out. final verdict - A, A-, B+, B and B. Seems like studying lesser is better yea? I doubt so. It's the grace of God, that made it happen.

And yes, I'm trying very hard to catch up with my bible readings, seems like there's so many things to do. ha ha ha.

As I read my bible today, some words floated around.

Honor - and i remembered about the book, honor's reward

Love for your leader - love covers a multitude of sins, is there anything that God's love can't cover?

God's will shall be done - everything has its purpose i guess

Bearing His cross - what does it mean to bear the cross?

I'm speaking in parables. ha ha! Gotta do more readings!! even more in my SMU semesters, coz i usually don't read. ha ha ha!

12 more hours to go

2009-04-13T10:43:00.001-07:00

exams in 10 hours time. It will be good, I have the grace of God upon me and I know that many people are praying for me! I will do well! :)

Time: 0930, 1117, 1236, 1340, 1428, 1555, 1740, 2100, 2206 and now.

Parables. Ha ha! I await your return! I can't wait for tmr morning to come to see what other surprises you have planned! Ha ha.

I'm really excited about starting a new service in Expo. It will be great! I believe that indeed, the East shall have its revival! Praise the Lord! Breakthroughs!!!! Huat ar!!

I miss you!

2 more days

2009-04-12T09:24:00.001-07:00

yea, finally the 3rd day is over! ha ha ha. it's a pretty uneventful and boring day, with me cooped up at home, devouring my notes for my Tuesday exams.

the only thing is that I really missed you today! ha ha. coz it's Sunday!! feels weird to not wake up early to go Expo, to attend service, to see you! Slept all the way till 930am, and since there, i'm in front of my laptop all the way, except for breaks for meals, toilet and bathing. how exciting!

Like what you said, you should be at some night market or something tonite! I hope you had lots of fun and enjoyed eating all the stuff there! I pray for a strong stomach. I pray for angels to watch over you wherever you go. I pray that you have a good sleep tonight and be refreshed for more sight-seeing tmr!

counting down, 2 more days. I await hearing all your interesting stories about CM.

2nd day....

2009-04-11T07:27:00.000-07:00

it's the 2nd day that you're away! surprised by your msg and thanks for praying for me! Today's exams went well I guess. Really gotta thank God for divine connection and I think, I really have the grace of God!

Late last night, my friend msn-ed me, and asked how's my revision for my paper today. I said I didn't study about the video cases and so she sent me her notes, 17 pages long. *our exams is open notes/book* And guess what, 50% of my exam is tested on the video cases!! Thank God for His grace man!

Today's a super interesting day! As this is my Prof's last semester in Spore, and he's flying back to Korea, he promised to sing us a song right at the start of the semester and today, HE SANG! It's like super cool!! He memorized the Little Nonya song and sang the full chinese song! wow! Super cute! and we asked for Encore, and he did a dance for us!! the Wonder Girl - Nobody dance. that's the ultimate man!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqtzQkoJS_k

Easter's drama really nice and I like it! ha ha. great job! and we're in the papers - straits times! cool!

Can't wait to share more with you. In e mean time, I will continue to study hard and await your return! looking for to the next mystery tmr morning!

Happy 8th month anniversary! :)

time to mug

2009-04-10T06:54:00.001-07:00

it's time to start mugging but yet, my heart is not here. Think I will just pray and sleep! ha! As said, I have 4 papers, one's due tmr at 10am. Then I have 3 exams left next week.

All that's in my mind is still Easter, retention and growth! and of course, YOU! How I wish I could spend like 15 minutes chatting with you before I continue studying! ha ha ha. But it's ok, I take comfort in the letters. I know you will enjoy yourself!

I'm missing you!!!

Pray for my exams! 10am-12pm! I will arise and make it happen! God's grace is upon me! back to my notes!

prayers needed

2009-04-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

Was chatting with wendy and joyce and we are reminded that it's april now. Can u imagine, a third of the year is gone!!!

What's ahead? Sports Day, Emerge, National Day, Children's Day, Musical, Christmas!!! and Thanksgiving!!

This has been the most busy period of my life this year. SOT, SMU, EASTER. It's challenging. But I know that I will come out of it stronger.

Being a team leader is not easy, but it's a challenge I relish. Easter's really challenging. 679, and 7177! I know I wouldn't fight this battle alone, right? ha ha ha.

I really need all ur prayers! Exams will be on the 11th, 14th, 15th and 17th April! How great to start exams on a Big Day! I shall start studying on the 10th April! ha ha ha.

Like what Joyce told her helper, SOT students have special grace from God. BUT! I believe that I will have extra special grace from God!

It's tiring, but I'm enjoying every moment of it. and YOU made it so much easier for me. Thanks dear, loving YOU always!

3 days that i long for...............

2009-03-17T18:03:00.000-07:00

Hibernation Day:
A typical HD goes like this: Waking up at any time that I want to, without worrying about the time. No more alarms, no more snoozing. Eating my regular meals for the day, stoning in front of my black box and doing some hunting in MH. No agenda, no deadlines, just a simple day to relax.

HD is something that's good to have once in a while. Doing it everyday makes you a lazy bum! :)

Exercising Day:
A typical ED: Waking up early at like 5am to go for a nice jog in the cool morning breeze! But that means gotta sleep early the night before. Ha ha. Having a hearty breakfast, nice bath and head back to bed AGAIN! Slack around, head out for a game of soccer or sports etc. Going for a stroll in the evening after dinner before settling down comfortably to be a couch potato!

Quality Day:
QD refers to a day spent solely with Joyce! ha ha. Just slacking, no agenda and doing whatever that we feel like doing - travelling to nice places to eat, like The Cheesecake Cafe, going to IKEA for meat balls, Island Creamery for desserts..... Quality time and quantity time. But somehow, this day might take a while to come. When's the next next public holiday? ha ha ha....

Ha ha ha. Guess what's the inspiration behind this entry. On my way while rushing to school coz I overslept, I saw the carefree-ness of the elderly strolling in the park, relaxing, slacking. N i envied them. Ha ha ha. But then again, given that I'm used to being so busy, maybe I wouldnt get use to that lifestyle. So once in a while, if I get to enjoy one of the 3 types of days I long for, it's good enough for me. Pretty random post yet again.

blogged

2009-03-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be a crazy three weeks of 6 presentations, 7 projects due(major and minor), and 4 exams. In the midst of it all, SOT's gonna start. It's a kind of anticipation deep within because I know that it will change my life. My thinking, the way I do the things I do.

Life has been challenging, as usual. But without challenges, why would life be interesting? I learnt what it means to sacrifice. I learnt what it means to die to myself. I learnt what it means to truly love someone.

In church, I learnt to strongly FENCE the door. I learnt to be a revolutionary. I learnt to inconvenience myself to make the life of someone else better. Indeed a learning experience for me over the whole of last week.

Recently, my boss commented that I have a low-maintainence gf. That could mean another way too, that I'm high-maintainence. ha ha ha. But I don't think that my gf is low-maintainence. It's simply because she's understanding, and she doesn't expect. She hopes.

What's the difference between expectations and hopes. It's disappointment. Expectation leads to disappointment where hopes do not. It's a bonus to be surprised. I promise you, surprises are on the way, maybe not very big ones, but at least I HOPE that it has my effort in it.

Workload has increased over the last week. But somehow, it became more enjoyable. Tiring, but I know I'm not alone. I'm blessed to be able to work. I'm blessed to be able to have you with me. Thanks for being understanding, supportive and awesome!

2009-03-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Looks like tonight, the sky is heavy
Feels like the winds are gonna change
Beneath my feet, the earth is ready
I know its time for heaven's rain
It's gonna rain

Cos it's living water we desire
To flood our hearts with holy fire

Rain down all around the world we're singing
Rain down can you here the earth is singing
Rain down my heart is dry but still I'm singing
Rain down rain it down on me.

Back to the start, my heart is heavy
Feels like it's time, to dream again
I see the clouds, and yes I'm ready
To dance upon this barren land
Hope in my hands

Do not shut, Do not shut, Do not shut the heavens
But open up, open up, open up our hearts

Give me strength to cross this water
Keep my heart upon your altar
Give me strength to cross this water
Keep my feet don’t let me falter

Holy Spirit, rain down upon my life!
Don't let me falter.

random thoughts

2009-03-06T07:45:00.000-08:00

I had quite a bit of time today, waiting for a fren for lunch, and doing my visitation alone as my helper had a meet-the-parents session in school. and thus, it was spent thinking. pondering.

I'm glad i met my fren for lunch, she tendered, wouldnt be working near my sch le, so at least can catch up for one last time b4 time becomes a scarcity.

I realized, that this year, time has been a scarce resource for me. and finances too. So here goes my random thoughts over today.

I think 'prosperous' ppl cant wear high waist belt - ha ha ha. no offense, something i observed today.

How do you put someone on 'fire' and create that sense of urgency in them?

Should i consider advertising line? seems like the pay, time and sacrifices are not justified, but somehow, it's enticing.

Life is precious, i saw an accident on wed, think e motorcyclist died. treasure every moment you have.

You have one life, live it. Live it for God. Live it for yourself.

If fear wants to cripple you, will you allow it or would you chase after boldness?

I want to be different. People who dare to be different makes the difference.

It's not what you have inside, but what you do that defines you - is it really true?

I believe in the power of confession!

It's just to be up and running. Appreciate it. I ran round Circuit Rd today. Saw children playing at playgrounds, people walking around. Enjoying the night breeze. I ran and confessed. 25 regular kids for Circuit Rd and 40 for E04.

Feels shiok to be running again. Gonna do it again soon. In process to shed some uncessary stress.

Fight for what you believe in. Fight for the fight of faith. But, what if, you can't see what you're fighting for?

I need my breakthrough. In every area of my life.

I need my time. Time to do what I like. Time to sleep. Time to think once again.

I can't imagine I have 6 tuition kids now. Teaching from Mon-Fri, some group, some individual. It's a challenge.

I will not give up trying. I think. Keep me in the race.

Continue running.

Looking beyond

2009-02-23T08:46:00.000-08:00

Things are not always what it seems to be.

Somehow, a mid term break doesn't appear to be one when it's piled with lots of work.

Endless work, will it ever end?

I need to look beyond the surface of things.

Words left unsaid are better than said.

With this, I let it go.

power of communication.

2009-02-18T08:48:00.000-08:00

Learnt about the importance of communication today. I think I really need it. Sometimes, words I used doesn't seem to be able to express what I'm feeling.

A tiring day today. lots of things along the way. bits of frustration with work and school, disappointment in certain issues but yet, i can't seem to be able to communicate it properly.

lots of uncertainty lies ahead. But i know that God says, "rest assured, I will your Light, I will illuminate your path". Just like what it says in Phil 3 :6-7.

Trusting in Him to make things happen and showing me a path when there's no path to go.

How? How? How? -> Let go and let God......

exams!!!

2009-02-16T05:31:00.000-08:00

two papers over the next two days. and i'm drowning........ why is time so precious that it slips away without anyone realising it.

I'm so "excited" abt my paper tmr. Let's see what i'm studying.....

Complexity - complex adaptive systems, a system whose properties are not fully explained by an understanding of its mutually interacting parts: new properties unexpectedly emere, studied using techniques from chaos theory, artificial life, evolutionary computation and generic algorithms.

It's stuff like this I'm reading for tmr. Oh man, I'm so "excited" abt it. No more "C" pleaseee.. God, please bless me!! Pray for me!!

CNY!!

2009-01-27T14:07:00.001-08:00

Chinese New Year came and went by just like that. Still, I appreciate the nice break that I had over the past few days. It's not really tiring this year, at a more relaxed pace. But I had been thinking quite a bit over the past few days.

I think I'm aging. ha ha ha. As I look at my cousins/nieces/nephews growing bigger every year, I feel that I'm really getting much older. And somehow, the aging process seems to speed up every year. Ha ha ha.

And I think being in love with someone doesn't involve just the two of them, but both their families and relatives as well. Met up with Joyce's relatives over the holidays, seems to be quite intimidating, considering the number of ppl there is!! ha ha. But they are a pretty close-knit family! Glad to have the chance to meet them, yup!

I think our lives are really shaped by goals and visions that we set each year. Either that, it's living up to the expectations of others. Seems like if you don't do it, others will do it for you. So why not planned out your life, under the guidance of God! I dislike living up to what people think I am, what they feel that I should be, maybe that's why i'm thought of as being rebellious by some. haha. Still, sometimes, it's hard to live up even to your own expectations when you know you cant reach it. People thinks that I'm confident in things that I do, in the way I portray myself, but there are situations and occasions, and I do think so as well, but yet, there are times when I feel that I'm not. That's why, we need to manage our expectations! Not only with others, but most importantly about myself. I'm learning how to do it right this year...

Time to head for a bit more rest before school! It's 618am now!! :)

Honor's Reward + randomness

2009-01-11T07:51:00.000-08:00

Wanted to blog, but my mind is blocked. Brain block-ed, mind-blocked, whatever you call it.

Anyway, as the title suggests, I learnt about honoring people today! I think it will be a nice book to read. And seriously, I think I really like Rev John Bevere's preaching! He speaks real fast but you can easily catch what he's saying coz he articulates his words well. He's handsome and of course, he's intellectual! Just like Dr A.R. Bernard, the super intellectual kind. Yea!

I need to learn to honor the people around me, even those who dishonors me. It's always easier said than done, but I will do my best, and of course, I'm gonna need lots of God's grace.

I've been a bit critical of certain things recently and I wonder what's wrong. Am I expecting a higher standard from people around me? Am I helping these people to improve through my expectations or maybe I should measure my expectations, because it's too much to expect? Maybe they are young? Hmmm, but then again, I started serving God when I was 16. There are so many basic things that seems to have been taken for granted nowadays. Hmmm, somehow I don't understand. I need God's wisdom in this, and really, I think we need to pray. Prayer moves mountains. Pst Cho built his church through prayer. I suppose our key to build up this team is through prayer. I know it can be done. It takes time, but I will honor them, for their faithfulness. For availing themselves. For just being there. Honor your peers, Honor your littles ones.

School's started. I'm still pretty much in the holiday mood. It's week one. 14 more weeks to holidays, 33 more school days! sounds pretty short yea? But SOT starts on e 31st! I haven register yet, i better get my forms soon! haa. I was talking to Joyce, think this batch will be one of the biggest batch of SOT, coz its after AC 2008. Think there will be many foreign delegates who wants to come and be equipped! It's so exciting!

I haven really formally wrote down my goals for the year. Just a lot of thoughts running all over my mind. Haven sat down to pen them down yet. But i'm excited, it's going to be my best year yet! Greater things have yet to be done!

Oh ya, my motto for the year 2009 - Be the BEST that I can be! In the midst of the many things to handle, the responsibilities - son, bf, VL, ops ic, svc ic, lay zs etc, I want to exceed and excel! I may not be the best choice, but I will give my best! You CAN too!

a brand new year!

2009-01-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

I have been really lazy thinking of what to blog. Sometimes, there's so many things to say, so many complaints that I wanna blog about, but I decided to just tell it all to God! haa. Anyway, let me start the year of with e 1st post!

It's gonna be a really challenging year ahead for me. Quite a few milestones for me that's in place, a matter of whether I can clear them! 3rd of March - my driving test, will I get my license? Hmmm. Still some time to go. And of course, SOT 2009!! I heard that there's quite a few people going for SOT this batch, so I think it's gonna be really exciting! And what's more, remember the EngWee's SOT fund? 1/3 of my school fees have already been secured! Praise the Lord! Thanks so much for your sponsorship! I'm really grateful, blessed and happy!!! hee.. You're the best! Feel free to call me if you need any help! I will go up the mountains, go down into the oil pot just for you! haaaaa.. (direct translation - muaaahhhhaaaaaa)

And school's gonna start tmr! My time table is so packed that my Tuesdays can be fasting days coz I simply have no time to eat. Gotta try to da bao food to class man! But I want to study hard and do well man! My results were ok last semester, I brought home a CAT for the 1st time in uni! so grrrrrr.. So for my last 3 sems, I wanna eat more fruits!! Only APPLES and BANANASSSS!! Please nag at me if u see me slack too much! haa.

And yea, my dear friends, have a great year ahead coz I know it will be your best year yet!! Jia you!

The end of 2008

2008-12-26T08:49:00.000-08:00

Christmas is finally over and it's one of the most hectic Christmas that I ever had. Hiccups along the way, breakthroughs, frustrations, surprises and many more. A roller coaster ride with God, how exciting life as a Christian can be when we're with God! I thank God that I made it through all these.

I thank God for everyone who had put in the effort in this big dayssss and especially all the PE zone ppl for fighting this fight along with me. It definitely wasn't easy, but I'm glad we all made it. At the end of the day, indeed, it's true that every joint supplies. And a tribute to my ever-hardworking PA, who part-times as a DB, PATUMA! haaa. I think she's on e verge of strangling me anyway, but still, it's ok. I got a thick neck. Not easily strangled.

As 2009 approaches, one thing that I realized is that I need to have an even greater capacity. To learn to cater to the different styles of people and accept them for who they are. God, I need your help in this aspect of my life and I know there is nothing too big for me that I cannot handle because You're with me! 2009 is going to be the best year yet!

Sometimes, I wish that people could understand me more, but I guess, I need to understand them more 1st before expecting them to know me. As I look for more part-time assignments to pay my bills and start saving for my EngWee's SOT fund, my time gets much more lesser. I seriously wonder how can i cope with my school work and all these, but God multiplies my time!

There's so much more things that I wish I could achieve, that I wish I could do, but I know, I need some time and I'm some way from it.

I need wisdom to make wise decisions. Wisdom to speak the right words at the right time. I need multiplication of time, to do much more things. I need sleep, which I'm going to grab some now. Byeeeeeeeeeeee.........................

Christmas is coming!!

2008-12-15T08:24:00.000-08:00

Yea, it's Christmas real soon!! yup, it's just like 9 more days, then it's Christmas and then 2008 is gonna be over. December has never been more hectic than this year!! and of course the many more years to come because of a new task! haaa... Thank God that everything has been planned, just one last small surprise.

Anyway, saturation with my zone is really cool. For the past few big days, I always had stuff to do like rehearsals and exams, but this time round, i'm FREEEE!! heee. saturation has been fun because of Pat's ultimate lame-ness!! and of course, i know that PE zone is the coolest zone when you see everyone fighting together for one another. Going to all areas to saturate. Because we believe that when we sow into others, we will reap in our own groups.

Just like how Gladys, would travel all the way from Sembawang to Tamp to saturate for 2hrs and then rush for rehearsals. Pat, going all over the zone to saturate. and of course, I have learnt a new way to saturate from her today!! She saw a group of ppl going door to door to sell mini connettos ice-cream. Guess what she did???!!!?? she went and bought a box of ice-cream and then 'shun bian' asked them to distribute the flyers for her. and to think of it, she even 'briefed' them what to do, whom can they give the flyers to etc. I'm amazed. Anyway, this way seems 'illegal'. so dun copy ar.. ha ha ha..

i cant wait for the big day to be over, and then i can look forward to 2009. an even better year ahead!

oh btw, whoever has any tuition lobangs etc, look for me. Or maybe part-time jobs that i can work from home, yea, i need more sources of income to settle my BF.

and of course, i want to go to SOT next year? anyone wants to sponsor me? ha ha ha. any amount is welcome! muaaahhaaaa...

some thoughts

2008-12-03T09:34:00.000-08:00

It's been a long long day, but I really wanted to blog before I sleep. To just write down some thoughts.

Went to NUH this morning to teach Angel Clay. Jo is working with CCF(Children's Cancer Foundation), to bring some joy to them, by getting the children to have fun with the clay while they wait to receive their treatment. My 1st time there was in Oct I think, teaching them how to make a cake. The very 1st gal i taught that day, was this gal in an isolation ward. Jillian, 2 years old. She's really adorable, cute and pretty, even though her hair was gone because of chemo. She was really smart and articulate and she enjoyed herself alot. This time round, I went back, I heard from the program coordinator that Jillian went home to be with the Lord just 2 weeks ago.

How important it is, to treasure every moment that you have with the people around you, because that could be the last time you make an impact in their lives. I was glad, that in her last days, at least there was a moment, which i was a part of, to bring her happiness.

In these children, I saw strength. Strength to fight the illness. Strength to live on. But I saw a greater strength. In their parents. They were there, to offer their support. They represent the source of strength to their children. I'm so proud of their love, their care and their sacrifice.

Then, headed down to my cousin's place, to visit Baby Amelia and my cousin, coz i cant make it for the 1st month celebration this Sat. Pretty little babe! ha ha ha.

Next up, was Camp Rock. As i joined the kids in e electives, I realized how blessed they are, to have an opportunity to be exposed to all these things. How I wish i knew about church when I was younger, then I wouldnt be as nerdy, and study so much. ha ha ha. Was really proud of all the children who put up a wonderful performance for all the teachers. They simply ROCKzzz!!

Had a great time of ministering and the presence of God was really strong. Prayed for the children and the teachers too, were ministered by the HS. For me, I was really blessed to just simply be there. God showed me a vision. He was holding on to one of my hand while I held on to the hand of a child. And He told me, that I would be the link that He will use, to bring the children to Him. Sometimes, I really wonder, what can I do, as a person, as just me and myself. There's so much to be done, that it seems so impossible. But at the end of the day, it's not really us alone. But God through us. We are the link, to be used by God to achieve and accomplish great things. Things we never ever imagined that we could do. All this can be done, only if we are willing to be THE LINK.

Gearing up for Christmas big day! it's getting so exciting! I can't wait for everything to start! :)

exams are out!

2008-12-01T01:05:00.001-08:00

exams are all over. 3 good, and 1 not so good. still, it's over. just waiting for results. can't wait to know how well i fared. then again, results don't matter, nor does it define me. so why stress? it's just an exam. take it, enjoy it and have fun.

3 more semesters to go. i started to think about what will i be doing when i graduate, and i'm clueless. so many possible places to go to, but what do i really want? I need to pray about it.

In e midst of testing, trying hard to cope. sometimes, it's really true that we need to learn to let go, and let God. but somehow, it's easier said than done. Lots of thoughts, but its hard to pen it down. (coz im typing... ok, it's not funny). but it's ok. I know that my God reigns. I guess it's a time for me to depend more on Him, rather than on my own intellect.

it's already December now. Can't wait for the year to end. And guess what, big day is JUST 18 days away! need to start gearing up for it. another round of battling! and then, i will rest in peace for 1 week, before another round of school begins.

26th, 27th, 29th Nov and 1st Dec

2008-11-23T20:11:00.000-08:00

Asia Conference came and went, and I'm really glad that we survived yet again. Harhar. Was just chatting and the conclusion we reached, 2008 have been a really eventful year. bad things did happen during the year, but there were many breakthroughs and amazing things too.. Easter Egg hunt, Emerge Jr, Special musical, Asia Conference and so many more. And not forgetting, Christmas Rock that's coming up in a few weeks time. We are really going on to a whole new level.

Just when everyone is taking a breather, it's time for me to fight yet another battle. 4 papers, 4 days, 10 hours. Somehow, I HAVE NO SENSE of urgency at all. I wonder if that is good or bad. Or simply I need a break. I have been playing a tiny winy bit of games in the midst of my mugging. Planning to watch some dvds as well. So ya, what about my exams? hmmm, close one eye, pray and study!!! harhar.. My 1st two papers should be fine i guess, not much studying to be done, just a matter of brains and crapping. It's the last two papers, so much to study that I have decided to just pick some to study. Muaahaaaa.. And what's more, I gotta work more, I haven been able to pay for my BF much and it's the time of the month to pay bills again. God, how am I going to make it? I will continue to trust, walking each step by faith.

I'm blessed by the whole Asia Conference. At what the church is doing. yea, we will impact Asia. We will impact a person at a time, and the entire place shall be impacted. I want to go for mission trips - either sponsored ones, or God has to provide me with the finances to go. I want to go China! I want to go SOT next year. I want to step into the unknown. Insulate me so that I can penetrate my marketplace!

blogging..

2008-11-16T07:47:00.001-08:00

It's close to 12am now. too tired to study after a long day of packing and serving etc. Asia Conf is coming up and it's really exciting! But then, it mean so many things to look into. Sometimes, I really can't wait to graduate, then I can concentrate and not worry/think about my studies. Ok, I may look super relaxed, but I do worry about my studies one ok? haaa. I may be a bit smart, but not that smart compared to the many smart people in school. But i think one thing that's good is that I know all things work together for good for those who love Him! So ya, trusting in Him.

So many things are on our mind. Things to consider, to prepare, to plan and to make things happen. We need an increased capacity!

I pray that you will have sufficient and good rest every night!

I pray that there is peace upon you, good sleep all the way till the morning!

I pray for good health and healing so that you can enjoy all the nice food!

I pray that you have an increase capacity, to do all that you are called to do!

I pray that your time will be multiplied!

I know my God hears our prayers! Thanks for your understanding, that I'm always so busy with so many things. Happy 3 months and 6 days! harhar...

Pray for my exams!! Having papers on the 25th, 26th and 29th Nov and finally, 1st Dec!!

Thanks all!

have you ever....

2008-11-05T19:43:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered why you gave so much of your time to serve God?

Have you ever thought whether the sacrifices that you made are worth it?

Have you ever thought why are you doing the things that you do?

Have you ever been in a valley and thought of giving it all up?

Have you ever been neglected by people?

Have you ever been wondered why you have to keep sowing into people's life without being acknowledged for it?

Have you ever been misunderstood by people whom you care about?

I think I had. But if there is one thing that keeps me going on, it's THIS => My God loves me for who I am, and my God cares for me!

Something to share

2008-11-03T05:26:00.000-08:00

It's a new round of morning prayer meeting once again. This time round, I made a resolution to go for it every single day! Even if my mum nags. haha.

Today was the 1st session, and it's really cool! God spoke to me about these 2 verses.

Pro 28: 25 - But he who trusts in the LORD will be prospered.

To me, "will be prospered" means that God will make a way, for someone to bring the prosperity to us! Yea, even as we sow into the BF, I'm sure God will make it happen. How can we ever outgive God? Our breakthrough is on its way!

Pro 29: 19 - A servant will not be corrected by mere words; For though he understands, he will not respond.

As I read the verse, God reminded me of the difference between a son and a servant. Sometimes we wonder why our people don't change or grow? Maybe it's because they are simply a servant? Someone who does not carry our DNA. So today, will you choose to be a servant or a son of God?

For me, the choice is pretty simple. I want to carry the DNA of God, of the church, of CCH. I will be a son of God! Amen!

.....

2008-10-31T10:04:00.000-07:00

this BF period is gonna be the most challenging ever. the amount ain't the biggest ever, but it's the toughest ever.

so many things on my mind right now. i'm physically and mentally tired.

Insurance, hp bills, tpt fees, and so many more things!!

Jehovah Jireh, God is MY provider!

I place my precious in Your hands!

a lot of things to settle, God, come and improve my relationships at home.

Sometimes, I wonder why do I keep giving and giving?

i guess i figured it out.

simply part of my DNA.

God, you're my everything!

Time really flies...

2008-10-28T17:43:00.000-07:00

Time passes by real fast. N I'm simply amazed that we are only about 2 months and 3 days left from the end of the year!!!! Just came back from a short trip to Batam with Joyce and two other friends, and it was pretty fun. Photos are not with me, haaa. I will get the photos from Joyce, but then, I might not upload it. COZZZZZ, im lazy to upload photos. so slow and takes up so much time. I've got better things to do. haaaa.... but most importantly for the whole trip, it was a time spent nua-ing and sleeping, giving me a much needed rest! so i should feel refreshed rite? haaahaa. but no!!! The moment i reach Singapore, i still feel like nua-ing... haaahaaaa.... Coz it's just 3 more weeks of school, then 1 week of study break and then it's exams!!!

Hmmm, actually, to think of it, I'm quite happy that exams are coming, coz it means it's gonna be holidays soon and I can finish this boring and uninteresting semester soon!! Great! Im gonna try to bid for some interesting modules next sem!!

Anyway, I heard 'rumours'!!! haaa.. I think there's gonna be some reshuffling around. I think it would be good. Changes are always constant and I always believe in it! God is always moving forward, and staying stagnant in your comfort zone only makes you grow mouldy!!!! Ppl, let's not be "chao sen"! Let's end the year with a bang! wooohooooooooo!!

Excitement

2008-10-24T11:08:00.000-07:00

I can sense great things are happening, and the 'air' smells different.

I want to be challenged, though I know that challenges = sacrifice.

Increase my capacity to do more than I can imagine.

God, come and do a work within me. I'm your masterpiece!

Excited about Asia Conf, December highlights and so many things!!!

ok, back to writing my report for now. but I'm excited!

Ps 139:13-14

2008-10-21T21:52:00.000-07:00

Ps 139: 13-14

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.

Yes you are. Trust me. Believe me.

just blogging.

2008-10-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

Just ended my last midterms paper. Then I will have 4 more weeks of school. Then I will have my study break, which coincides with the Asia Conference, and finally, after which, I will have 4 exams and HOLIDAYS will arrive! I think God is really testing me in my faith to trust Him for my exams. It always coincides with big days, big events. I only have exams in Feb, April, Sep and Nov. As such, Feb - Clashes with CNY, April - Clashes with Easter, Sep - Clashes with CD, Nov - Clashes with Asia Conference/Christmas/Musical(2007). My life is so exciting!

Last night's cellgroup, we are told to write down three positive thoughts about ourself, and recite it everyday, 20 times when we wake up and before we sleep.

1) I will be as shining light in my marketplace (School and ministry for now, career up next)

2) I am a PRECIOUS child of God

3) I will be successful in my life (Not sure what I was thinking when I wrote this, what defines success?)

Anyway, there are so many things to be done. Sooooo many things on my mind. Some times, we wonder, what really matters? Opinions of men? How we view ourselves? Or simply, what matters to God?

a long post

2008-10-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

This shall be a long post from me. With a lot of random ramblings as I'm thinking a lot.

First, thanks for the all nice and belated lunches, dinners from all my friends! Thanks for understanding that I'm so busy and can't celebrate my birthday earlier with all of you. Wo bu shi diao qi lai mai!! harhar..

Next, I really fed up with some of my projects this semester. I'm not sure if it's just me, or is it them? Something is not quite right. I simply can't stand inefficiency as it takes away my precious time, but somehow, that seems to be the case. I'm not saying that they are not good, just that we have really different working styles. Maybe tat's why i still like to bid for modules with my long-suffering buddy in SMU. harhar.

As of Oct, I started serving in Sat Expo. I realised that it's pretty different from Sun Expo. Styles are different, people are different, and of course, the children are different. And this week, my 2nd week, was the most challenging week. so many of our core teachers are not around, and in e end, Pst and Shumei came by to help me out. So grateful! It opened my eyes to alot of things, set me thinking alot too. What is your purpose as a children's church teacher? What do I want to impart to the children who are 4 to 6 years old? What can I do and what is the best way that I can do it? It's not easy to be in charge of a service, so many things to look into. That's why I'm amazed at how Anna does it every week! I need to learn and enlarge my capacity.

Each child spends 3 years in my age group of 4-6. I have seen them grow, from being timid to being mischievous. Misbehaved to being very obedient to the teachers. It's a learning process. If there's one thing that I want to tell them, it has to be this: "Each one of them is SPECIAL, both in our eyes and God's, and GOD is the one who made them special". I believe that every child deserves to know and understand that, have confidence in themselves and know that God is the one who made them unique!

This week's cg and service was awesome and I believe that I had the honor to be a part of the MOST LEGENDARY offering msg given in a cg. Was really blessed by the message by BingHwa!! He shared with us from Gen 26. Of how Isaac went to Gerar during the famine. And then later, he sowed and he reaped. So how did Isaac had seeds to sow? It was most likely because the king gave it to him. Therefore, BingHwa gave us each a seed. It was 50 bucks, given to us in an envelope. (There's alot of us at the cg meeting!!) We can choose to keep it, or sow it, topping up with our personal giving. We were all so awed n blown away by the message. We had the chance to sow this seed, n be ready to reap the harvest together as a cg! I'm simply amazed!

Finally, I wanna talk about F5 or F4+1 as what Gene says. Let me share with you how all these started and came about. F4 was this awesome group of 4 friends, bob, gene, hui n joyce. It's a long term friendship where everyone is committed to one another, to watch each other's back. Then came along the 5th member of the group. He was someone going through a 'mini crisis' back then when Joyce suggested reaching out to him (as said by gene). And since they are around the same age, he was soon mixing well into their click and he really appreciated the effort and time spent with them! All the lame stories, the legendary TOUFU joke, all these are precious memories! So as time passes, F5 evolved into F4 + 1. But actually, it should be F4 +3, am i right gene? Still, I believe that this friendship will never change. That's because it's a friendship with God right in our midst! I really thank God for all of you, as you changed an anti-social person, who likes to go home straight after serving or service, into someone as lame as all of you!! muuaaahhhhaaa... Really appreciate all of you!

Finally, I'm really glad that A&B is coming. It's not going to be easy, but i know that we are going to go from glory to glory. There are so many things that I do not understand, but I can sense that God is doing a great and mighty move in our midst. I'm excited! Please help me by finding me more part-time jobs! To earn more money! hahaha.

Relief.. Time to rest and get ready.

2008-10-03T05:05:00.000-07:00

Finally, after such a long while, I can finally sit down and rest. And yea, I could finally sleep a proper 9 hours last nite!!! harhar.. It's been such a tiring and challenging time for me, but I'm glad that I survived and came out stronger!

Children's Day is finally over, but follow up and visitation has just begun! I thank God for the increase that he brought to my group, and my zone! I had my breakthrough attendance of 77!! haa. Can be counted as my highest ever for a single group, the last highest attendance was 74. Going from glory to glory! And guess how much my zone's attendance was? While chatting with Ade, we realised that our current attendance is 498/499!! faint. just one more. Digging and searching now, not sure if we can find that one more child! But still, I thank God for all the wonderful leaders, Patuma, GekLing, Gladys, Eileen, and helpers like Calista and Wendy who put in so much effort to make things happen! So proud of them!

And ya, this is something interesting from Patuma!!! PE culture is defined as followed by Patuma:
1) PE ppl dislikes Winnie the Pooh, coz she overshadows Tigger (they seem to have a common liking for Tigger, so weird)
2) PE ppl likes to cycle!! (Apparently, only Patuma, Gekling and Calista likes that, Wendy is trying to learn from them)
3) I forgot.. haaaaa. I was busy studying and forgot about the 3rd one.

Anyway, so happy to see them growing closer and integrating the helpers! Let's grow together!

Oh ya, not forgetting, I thank God both my exams are over. One more to go in 2 weeks time. But it's really by God's grace that I made it through. Both papers are manageable, I think I will confirm pass, just a matter of how well I will do. Harhar. So I shall confess by faith, at least 80/100 marks for MR paper and above 90/100 marks for SCM paper! If i can get my breakthrough for my attendance, I WILL get my breakthrough for my results! Seek 1st the kingdom of God!! haaa..

I'm so looking forward to relaxing and enjoying myself! I need to rest my body. Harhar. I'm getting old le.. haaaa....... N most importantly, must find time for J!! Was so busy that I didn't had enough time for her. Thanks for understanding!! :)

Counting my blessings

2008-09-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

It's been a really hectic weekend. And my birthday coincided with our 1st ever big day at Expo. Everyday went smoothly and we had overwhelming response!!

And I want to take this chance to thank all who wished me through SMS coz i didn't had time to reply you! Thanks to Patuma(e 1st and most kiasu one), Calista, Cindy, Yanglin, Ade, Pst Eileen, Bernice Wang, Zhiyang, Ken, Eugene, Mei, Matt, Zhangwei(finally rmbr-ed my bdae after 7 yrs!!), KS, Rachel, Elaine, Rong Xian, Isaac, Miko, Wendy, and finally Josce!! Thanks for all your well wishes!!

I wanna thank KS, Kenny, Shaan, Rich, and Cherieberry(aka whitey/darky) who celebrated for me during class break, and using a satay stick(looks like an incense) as a candle. harhar. cheers!

N of course, I had a nice dinner with Joyce, who had a surprise for me. Thanks dear, for everything that you have done for me! “永”远爱“欣 ”

N finally, I hit my target of 68 already for big day, without taking into account the upcoming Wed big day! Praise God!

stock-take

2008-09-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

I think I need this to remind myself of the things to do. I'm getting pretty tired, so gonna take a 5 minutes break before starting to study. and its 1205am now!

Things to accomplish by 2nd Oct:
1) Presentation slides out by Sunday 2359
2) 2 reports due by Tues 2359
3) 2 exams on Thurs, 2nd Oct
4) Maybe one more report due on Thurs, will find out tmr during class

I'm so amazed at the amount of work that I have to do. Yet, I'm not feeling anxious or worried. Was talking to J and she said she's praying for me, that everything will fall into place and I will do the right things at the right time. Maybe thats why.

时间的价值，只有在你左右，才显得非常珍贵！

staring at my books

2008-09-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

I'm staring at a pile of books and notes, knowing that somehow, something needs to be done. But I do not know how. Sianz.

I want to sleep and I think, I want to get out of school real soon! If only I have a time machine.

God, I pray for our breakthrough, 499 children, above and beyond! It will be done, not by power, not by might, but by the POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!

Back to work, pray for me. Pray that I don't fall sick, pray for my two papers on e 2nd Oct!!! I wonder when I can start studying......

你让我明白牺牲的定义，让我知道我不会独自奋斗。

tiredness is relative

2008-09-18T08:36:00.000-07:00

i realised today that tiredness is relative. i was tired and frustrated during my class today, as my Prof was rambling and he doesn't know what he's teaching.

I'm really tired and weary, so many things on my mind, so many things to look into.

Then, i went to visit my children, n I wasn't tired at all!

Your passion consumes you and takes over all tiredness and weariness.

God, give me a greater capacity to handle all that I have to do.

I need wisdom, for my exams. Little time, maximum results! Time to start mugging!

wishes

2008-09-11T20:57:00.000-07:00

Today's my cheena bdae. Harhar, and I didn't know it till my mum told me last nite. Wanna thank God for a wonderful mum coz she gave me a big ang bao!! harhar. just when i'm totally broke. It came in handy. hee. though my mum always nags at me, and she doesn't like me to go church, but still, i know that deep down, she still loves me! Thanks mum!

Anyway, we had a great PM on Wed, renewed and refreshed for the battle ahead! My exams are smacked right together with the big day, gotta squeeze time out to study. It can be done!

N ya, I think I'm greedy, making two wishes!! Jo made her bdae wish and it came through. So I shall make my wish too!! harhar. For my cheena bdae, i shall wish for 233 for this week's excursion and for my actual bdae, i shall wish for 499 for the big day!! so dear leaders reading this, jia you and make it happen for PE zone yea!! haha..

Other than that, what are my other wishes? Let me make a short list. harhar..
1) Shirts/Polo T-shirts - No time to go shopping ar... but i need new clothes..
2) Cheap watch - Not metal, not plastic, I also don't know what I want, since i dun wear watches
3) New wallet - Not kiddish.. *hints*
4) New pair of shoes
5) New phone (my phone is dying on me, pls pray for it to last longer)

Last but not least, I need lots of TIME and MOOLAH!!!!! Oh ya, b4 i forget, my other wish is to go SOT next year!! Haa, but i need moolah for that. So maybe I should set up a "Sponsor EW's SOT fund" Haa...

Ok, time to get back to work. Till then, await my good reports! Going for breakthroughssss!!

Let our faith frame our today and future!!

2008-09-03T08:28:00.001-07:00

Typing this entry on my way home from visitation. Just wanted to share how amazed I am with my great and awesome God!

Our faith indeed frames our future and our daily life! Had my IPPT yesterday, and just as I’m about to run my 2.4km, it started pouring cats and dogs. So I asked the people there and they said that it will be cancelled if the rain continues. But I have no other time to take my IPPT and his best advice was, pray hard! And so I prayed and confessed that the rain will clear in 10 mins time. Kept praying and praying till I saw the rain become smaller and come to a complete stop!!! God is awesome! And so I took my IPPT and PASSED! Harhar. No need for any extra training. Praise God.

And today, on my way from school to visitation, I was traveling with my friend, and she mentioned, how am I going to visit with such heavy rain. And so I prayed again, if God can do it once, I’m sure He will do it again. And so the rain stopped from the minute I stepped out of the shelter till I completed the visitation. Right now, sitting in the bus, the rain is super duper heavy yet again.

And God spoke to me while I was visiting today. As I was alone, I had the luxury of personal time with God. I was just asking God how to have faith to hit our targets. And the verse “Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God” came to me. And I was thinking, God, I also know that, but how!!! Harhar. Then He reminded me that Word = Logos + Rhema. We need to spend time reading the Logos Word to reassure us of the promises that God has promised us. But more than that, we need to learn to be sensitive to His Rhema Word. We are now in the race against time, to hit our targets. So the best way is to pray and hear from him what’s the best strategies, who are the potential children to work on. Where should we go to find all these children? More than depending on what we know, we got to depend on Him to show us the way. People, let’s begin to go back to our basics. Pray and hear from God. Don’t be busy for the sake of being busy. Go back to the WORD and have faith to believe and have the faith to frame our world! Jia You!!!!!!!

de-stressing

2008-09-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

blogging to de-stress. too many things on my mind that i think my brainy brains are not functioning properly.

i hate being sick, but i am. i hate to take medicine, but i did. i want to recover, but not yet.

school's not easy this semester, but i find solitude among the busyness in school today. in my 1 hour duty, i found rest, peace as i plugged in to my mp3. listening to all e nice P&W songs. it's gonna be a weekly thing for me for the next 11 weeks of duty. maybe, it's God way of making me rest.

I'm going to run my IPPT tmr, not knowing how it will turn out. I can't afford to fail, or that would equate 2 times of extra compulsory trainings, and it will rob me of my precious time. God, take away my flu so that I can breathe properly while I run tmr!!!

I need to rush my work now. Deadlines upon deadlines. I realized something, i dislike fighting alone. so please fight alongside with me.

Faith.

school's started....

2008-08-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

School has finally started and it seems like it's going to be a busy semester coming up. The work haven really come in yet, but I'm expecting it. I wanna do well this semester, so that I can TA next semester and earn more moolah..

Anyway, the morning PMs organised by CHC has ended, but it has started in SMU. I'm so amazed by the fervency of the people. I shall pop by and join them one of these days too. And I really enjoyed going for all the morning PM. Starting the day fresh with God and the added incentive of it all was that J's with me. loved the nice fellowship and breakfast after that.:)

Anyway, it's been a nice week last week. I wanted to upload some pictures, but im a bit lazy. harhar. so just check out J's blog if you are interested to see them.

And ya, I realized so many people are reading that my blog and that I must be more discreet!! hee. to avoid further suan-ing..

And finally, I need moo-lah, so if you have any part time jobs, or any lobangs to intro me, do give me a call. yup.

oh ya, just before i forget, something great happened on the 24th August!!

Rae Lee is officially attached to Mr @win!!!! harhar.. Love is indeed in the air and I'm sooooo happy for both of them. And Rae, I just realized that you have alot of common friends with J. Harhar..

This photo's taken last Fri, when we met up with J's cuzzie and her bf. nice and relaxing dinner. We caught a short preview of the fireworks after that. Went for the full show on Sat coz my bro had two extra tickets. so cool, our 1st time watching fireworks so upfront! nicer pictures in J's blog.

changes are the only thing constant

2008-08-19T03:27:00.001-07:00

Changes are the only thing constant.

My life has since been changed, never to be the same again.

But, it's a happy change. :)

More changes are going to come, pretty major for me I think.

But this is how the way of life is.

You either move forward or move backward, coz the world never stops moving.

I'm glad that I'm going to move forward to a whole new level.

Something new, a challenge that I will relish.

I may not be the best, but God can make the best of me.

I think I will miss all of them a lot. really!

n ya, I just come to e realization today, that means I can't attend service with you!!

No one to poke me awake, no more chocolates, no more sweets and no more you!

But everything's gonna be alright! All things work together for the good for those who love Him.

I'm loving morning prayer meetings too! so cool! so awesome! It always feels good to start the day afresh with Him. And not to mention, the nice breakfast, and seeing you!

thinking

2008-08-15T09:05:00.001-07:00

Today, I lay on the floor and stared at the clock.

The second hand was moving and moving, never intending to stop.

Very soon, the minute hand moved from 12 to 1 and 5 minutes passed.

The time just flew pass and I wonder, what could 5 minutes do?

In our lives, we have lots of 5 minutes, but what are we doing about it?

What are you doing with YOUR 5 minutes today? start thinking...

I went for morning PM for the past two days, and I've been blessed by it. Praying a lot for PE zone as well. Will be back again next week.

PE zone = PEOPLE of destiny EMPOWERED to fulfill it

People, let's arise to fulfill out destiny that God has in place for us!

God have been speaking to me about a few things.

Ps 1: 8 - Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations for Your inheritance, And the ends of the earth for Your Possession.

And there's this other verse that talks about us not having because we have not asked! Have we really been asking God for our revival or breakthrough? There's so many things that I need, and I'm believing in faith that my God will provide for me.

Exo 33: 13 - Now therefore, I pray, if I have found grace in Your sight, show me now Your way, that I may know You and that I may find grace in Your sight.

God, let us have Your grace upon us and show us Your way, that we might know You! So often, we thought we know it all and want to do things our way, but we end up banging our head against the wall. Seek Him 1st, and know His way.

And finally, i read this in someone's blog. And it's so true. Let our hearts not die. Disappointments and hurts may cover it, but never let it die. God can revive our hearts if we let Him. Do not do things with a heart that's dead or dying, for it will yield no result.

Your revival is born out of your passion. Your passion flows out of your living heart. Allow God to come and move in our hearts today and you will have your revival soon!

It wasn't a wonderful day today, but i know we will be strong. It's built on a solid rock that withstands. Trusting in Him.

it's official!!

2008-08-12T21:51:00.000-07:00

Anyway, decided to post this up before everyone starts nagging me to do it. And ya, though I would prefer to tell you guys slowly. but this is one of the most efficient way.

On the 11th August, something amazing happened!!!!!

and Mr Seah is NOW officially attached to Ms Tham!!!!!

Mr Seah hereby makes a pledge to Ms Tham that he will love and accept her for who she is for eternity! Come what may, he will stand by her side, treasuring her forever! Love ya!

A message in season

2008-08-12T11:26:00.000-07:00

When I first saw the TTDL last week, I thought that maybe I should give the leader's meeting this week a miss coz i really need to spend some time at home.

Thank God i didn't miss it. It was indeed a message in season for us.

Pastor spoke of so many things, that makes me so amazed at how God works things out for us.

He does hear our prayers, and knows our every thought rite?

so amazing.

important update!!!

2008-08-11T10:21:00.000-07:00

Learnt an importance lesson today. Never be complacent!

I thought I won the game when I found you, only to realise to my shock that I lost you. Can you imagine the sense of agony n loss and ultimate sian-nesssss....

Thank God in the end it was 'found' again.

I know that God's telling me something, to treasure you and not be complacent!

I will take great care and not lose you again.

It's my promise to you!

I know I'm speaking in parables! Harhar, but it's for me to know, for you to find out. Just be happy for me that I didnt lose anything in the end other than the few moments of anguish!

Anyway, spEcial has officially ended! No more late nights because of the musical. I know I always say this after the musical, I said it at the end of WIGU, when I said that it's so tiring that I don't want to do it again. But then again, I did it. WIGU 2 is coming up in Nov. I know my mind is telling me not to play a part coz it's in e midst of my exams. But then again, I know and I know, that it's impossible. We shall seeeee.

The last show was the best among the 3. That's what I felt. Everyone really gave their all. My fren called to congratulate me today, pretty surprised. But then, I just felt that I only played a small part in this. THEY made it happen. Like what Keith said, my impression of IDs changed greatly. I'm sure you didn't know this, they were among the 1st few to memorise their lines after just a few rehearsals. Not even the adults could do it as well. And I'm sure I can't. So proud of them.

all of YOU are simply so spEcial and AWESOME! I'm looking forward to the next musical! Harhar.

spEcial

2008-08-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

spEcial - all of you are so AWESOME!

One show is done, two more to go. I'm not only physically tired, but mentally as well. Been depending on Panadol to get the days by, but i know, it's all worth it. All the preparations, all the late nights, all just for that one hour.

But when you know that people are touched by it, you know and you understand. When you see the bond that the children form, the new friendships, the joy on their face. I saw it today in the spEcial children. When the show ended, I saw tears in some of their eyes. The sense of achievement, the sense of relief, and maybe sadness that it's going to end. But I know, this will remain with them forever.

happy

2008-08-05T04:36:00.001-07:00

After 2 long long weeks, my KFC craving is finally satisfied! harhar. It's not as bad as Gene has said.

Maybe its the gesture! haaa..

Happy and satisfied!!

Anyway, i'm much better le. Learning to cope with things.

Musical is really coming real soon and I'm so busy with everything. But i know that all these sacrifices are worthwhile.

The kiddos are so awesome!

rantings

2008-08-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

i know i need to get this out of me if not, i wouldnt be able to sleep tonite.

Had a long long chat, i know i upset her, made her unhappy and stuff all these while since i became a Christian. Never knew that the grudge bore so deep. Maybe it was because of the way I react to the things that she do. Maybe it's just simply me.

I do not know why, but i could identify with the character Nelly. I felt it when she sang the song today. one of the verse was this, would you love me for who i am. and i know that it's something deep within me, that's hiding. maybe no one knows, coz all things looks ok on the surface. it surfaced tonite. yes, i do not understand.

how do you expect situations to change. by changing the situation or by changing yourself? I would love to change myself, but what will I do if changing myself is equivalent to losing myself. what am i suppose to choose........

i do not know if i will ever measure up to your expectations, maybe not, maybe yes, maybe never. what is really important to me? somehow, i do not know. all of a sudden, things feel so different, so strange. i thot i knew all along, but maybe i do not, or maybe i have gotten it all wrong.

things remain at a standstill, when the whole world waits for u to make that decision. it's so quiet. so silent. i know i will try.but i do not know when will i finally give up trying. will i ever?

im sorry if this post is emo, but this is my blog. dun bother asking me about this if you do not understand, for you wouldn't get a reply. just know that i will be fine. give me time.

appreciation

2008-08-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

Appreciation.

Treasure the people around you for you might not know when you might not have the chance anymore.

Small actions can have big consequences.

You will never know how your every action affects the people around you, until they have been affected.

Small steps bring you closer to the destination.

Keep walking.

thoughts

2008-07-30T04:52:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 16: 1 (The Message) - Mortals make elaborate plans, but God has the last word.

Proverbs 16: 2 (The Message) - Humans are satisfied with whatever looks good; God probes for what is good.

Proverbs 16: 3 (The Message) - Put God in charge of your work, then what you've planned will take place

God knows what's good for me and He has the last word in everything that I long to do. Remember, when God is in charge, everything that's planned will go well.

God, come take charge of my life! Breakthroughs in every area!

Your revival will flow out of your passion for Him!

after so long

2008-07-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

I finally made the decision to sit down and blog. My internship is finally over. it's been a long long 3 months of internship, with times of fun and sian-ness. But i would say, it's still part and parcel of life, a good experience for me.

My brainy brains are slowing down. Haven been thinking much recently, slacking. Things are just sitting still in my brains. Not much progress. I feel that there's so much things to do, yet, I do not know what to do and how to do. I need to start planning my life.

I like e cg and svc message this week. It wasnt something that requires me to think alot, but it's more of a reminder to me. God is indeed able to make anything happen. and how important it is to run a race in such a way that you will be winning the race. so cool. Lethargy sets in during the middle and it threatens to take away the purpose of why we started.

Im believing for so much more. I think i know e reason why i haven been thinking, it's cause i have no answer to my questions. Someone offered me an answer, to do all things with a pure and right heart. maybe its just so simple and so true. i do not know yet, but i will figure it out soon.

Im in need of a breakthrough in so many areas of my life right now.

Everyday I live, I know you are my God
I lift my face and look to you my Lord
Even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall
I will stand You, Jesus take my all

This verse is so true to my heart. That no matter what happens, as long as I live, I know that my God is in me. n in this walk, I am always going to stand with you my Jesus! this is not going to be an easy walk, but i know that with you, i will make it.

thinking

2008-07-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

I have another 30 minutes to the end of work. I learnt something today. It’s really so stressful and tiring to act busy. I think it’s so much easier to do work than to act. I wonder how come people like to chao keng. As such, I resorted to writing this now.

It’s been an enjoyable day today, and I think prayer really works. It hasn’t been all that rosy at work recently and I was really sianz this morning. So I prayed for grace and favor at work this morning. And guess what, I had a nice 2 hour lunch with one of my colleague and we chatted quite a bit. N then, I talked to my manager and we were joking over some stuff. The last time we talked without the feeling of any tension was like one month plus ago. Harhar. God is great. And anyway, it’s just my last 5 days here and so I’m just gonna give it my best shot. It’s going to be a busy week next week. Event on Thurs and all preparations need to be settled by Wed.

I come to a realization these few days. I think I need to study the Word more. I need to stop falling asleep in service! I will make the conscious decision to do so. If not, I’m going to feel so shortchanged. Bleah!! I will make it happen!

Thinking of 2 questions recently:

Should I go for IndoFest this time round?

Should I go to SOT next summer?

My two biggest constraints would be time and money! Grrrr.. God, I need You to make a way for me, just like how You always do. Thank You in advance!

a promise awaiting to be fulfilled. one that's valid forever and ever.

randomness

2008-07-10T09:51:00.000-07:00

Two key things that I have learnt over the past 11 weeks are the power of empowerment and the importance of how environment shapes behavior. It’s simply amazing how the environment that one is in can shape his behavior. If this can be applied to an adult, how much more does it apply to a child who is definitely much more susceptible to circumstances caused by the environment? One thing that I learnt from my friend, according to a research, it is proven that a baby is only born with two types of fear: the fear of hunger, and the fear of falling. All other types of fear are learnt as a result of what they observe in their ENVIRONMENT! This goes to show how much your environment plays a part in your development as a person.

The power that lies behind empowerment is limitless. Whether your people are living in your shadows or they are soaring high in the skies with you depends on one thing; have you EMPOWERED them to do what they can do. Tap into their strengths and allow them to soar under your guidance. It’s such a tragedy to see people’s potential being buried and not fully unleashed just because you are too busy to allow them to do so.

I thank God that I have made it thus far. It’s just 2 more weeks to go; 10 more days and I pray that it will be good! Moving on to the next phase of life. I took a step of faith today. :)

randomness

2008-07-07T08:25:00.000-07:00

Some thoughts. Nothing really significant, just some random thoughts. Celebrated Pst’s bdae on Sat and through the video, I saw how far she has walked on this road. And a thought struck me, where would I be when I look back many years from now. What would I have done or achieved from the start till now, and from now till next time? It’s really true that the decisions we make today affects what we do in the future. And we make our decisions, plan our OWN time and schedule.

Pst Mike was around for the whole week and it’s been a really great time having him around. He still looked the same after so many years. It’s been a week of learning, and though its tiring to travel to JW so many days, it’s worth it. Haha. To be an AMBASSADOR of Heaven to the children. That’s what I aim to be.

And finally, I can understand why Gene wears crocs to church on Sat. It’s so tiring to do operations, running all over and standing for so many hours. It must have been so comfy to be in Crocs. But operations is still quite fun and interesting, though It’s really tiring. Mr Fang said I did well. Harhar. Every Sat is gonna be so challenging, to wake up at 6am. So happening!

Thinking of a trip to Kuching with my zone leaders. It’s gonna be so awesome if I can really go there. So fun! God, I pray that there will be tickets available and it’s CHEAPPPPP!!! Harhar.. I want my holidays!!!

And yes, Im so happy that I took leave this Friday, can finally have some much needed rest. Sit down to think and plan for my modules next semester, and go for PUSH camp in e evening. Im looking forward to it!

nice

2008-06-30T07:23:00.001-07:00

Just saw this while blog surfing. sorry for ranting.. haha.. I need a greater capacity to deal with everything!

We don't live in a perfect world.
Learn to live with imperfect situations, unresolved issues and unfulfilled expectations without losing your great spirit.
There's always something that isn't the way you want it.
Get happy in spite of this.
As you deal with it, stay happy, not upset.
If the unresolved problem gets you, then it's won.
Stay on top even when it's trying to get you down, and you'll win.
This is Christianity at its best.
Staying up in a down situation.
That's leadership.

angrysssssss

2008-06-30T07:04:00.001-07:00

im very angry right now, at this very moment!!!!

i dun understand what are you guys thinking!!!

no one likes to do admin, n that includes me.

but it had to be done.

so can you guys wake up your idea n do YOUR ADMIN n not let me chase after you!!!!

angrysssss.........

i resorted to msging them, if i call, i sure scold..

face my wrath!!

harhar.. im ok le, after ranting.. i love the song, hati hamba, i really do.

i've decided, everyone shall take turns of taking charge of the admin!

then you will know how I feel.

I'm thinking about something else now. It's not easy. haiz.. im thinking so much nowadays..

it's just 2 hours more......

frens

2008-06-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

its been a tiring weekend with the move back to hall 8. but it's a great weekend. with a great sermon n PM for the guys, who catches the message! harhar..

find the purpose that you have in your life, the one that God has set for u.

then u will know e roles that God has in place.

im fine now. yea, moving forward.

im happy today, i think.

im thinking about some stuff though.

about friendships. friends move in and out of our lives so quickly.

how on earth do you maintain friendship with everyone who came into your life before?

how to find enough time to fellowship with all the people?

my fren said just gotta show you care.

but then, diff ppl have diff expectations. diff love language.

thats y, im sorry, if i ever made you feel that im not spending enough time with you.

tell me k? I will do my best. trying to squeeze every ounc of time out of me.

but i need my time to hibernate too. hehe..

its just 1 more day!!.....

randomness

2008-06-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

this is a pretty random entry.

just need to rant.

not really rant i think, but im still thinking about it.

booooo!!

anyway, slept for close to 12hours last nite.

it will be at least another month b4 i can do it again.

im not going to do transport anymore.

haiz, so sad. i think the E02 kids are gonna be so happy, no one to scold them.

moving on to the next JD, the next level.

harhar. gotta reach church by 830am nowadays coz im doing OPERATIONS!!!!!!!!!!

i have tried to push it away for so long, but i guess the time has arrived.

i need my rest.

i need my peace.

to hibernate and think things through.

and someone to listen to my crap.

2 more days to go...........

bleah

2008-06-27T06:47:00.001-07:00

it wasnt a good day.

but i will move on.

it set me thinking.

what should i have done?

it's just 20 more days.

im thinking.

what would u do when u are faced with a challenge?

struck with an arrow.

will you keep on fighting?

or will you fall away injured.

there are always setbacks in life.

it's how we handle it.

no one, no person in this world will measure up to ur expectations all the time.

that why we have the word 'disappoint' in the dictionary.

stay focused and move on.

the goal is right ahead.

i will be stand up and fight!

3 more days to go.........

2008-06-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

Standing in awe of Your grace
Setting my feet in Your ways
Entering into Your presence
To behold you face to face

God of all heaven and earth
Holding me in Your embrace
Unfailing love that surrounds me
Oh God, I stand amazed

My Jesus, My Lord
You're the love of my life
Wherever You go
Wanna be by Your side
No longer I
But Christ living in me
Serving You for all eternity

MY eyes set on You
In this race that I run
No longer my ways
Let Your will be done
Make me a servant
My heart's ever true
Clinging to the cross
I'll follow You

4 more days to go........

my long entry

2008-06-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

as promised earlier, this is my long long entry. 1st, let me start with this verse that i have been meditating on.

Neh 5: 19 - Remember me, my God, for good, according to all that I have done for this people.

E earlier part talks about how Nehemiah had provided for the people and his generosity towards them. As I read, i felt God trying to speak something to me. Why did Nehemiah pray this prayer? What had he done exactly for the people? But all these didnt really matter. The key here is that Nehemiah HAD DONE something for the people and that's why he can pray this prayer. He had made a difference in the lives of the people and thus he can ask of God to remember him.

My point here is that are you able to pray such a prayer? In my case, what have you done for the children? Have you given the best of all that you had? Do you think you justify praying this prayer? I have been meditating on it for quite a while, asking myself a lot of questions. Through the past 7 years that I have been serving, what have I given, what have I done. Have I always given my all. There are times when I held back, there are times that i gave my all. I know, and I know, what God can do with my all. Like what Joyce shared, don't limit God. so cool. My God is so amazing.

Other than this, I have also observed quite a bit of things while in army. Some interesting stuff.

1) it's interesting how people from all walks of life can come back, gather and meet once a year, and yet, they can fight together and for one another.

How much more will we, as Christians, who gather twice a week, fight this fight of faith. To work together, for God and for one another. Covering each other backs, and going about to do His work.

2) This is relevant to me, might not be for others. How a guy can put on his green uniform and go to the jungle and be so normal. Like just lying down on the floor and sleep, walking around in total darkness except for the moonlight. Get dirty and muddy and yet, take it all in his stride as he marches out for e warfare. I would feel so weird if you ask me to put on my t-shirt and jeans and go to the jungle, i wouldn't be able to do all that.

Isn't is the same, without the whole armor of God, the helmet, the breastplate, the sword, the shield, we would feel like we are going to the battlefield with t-shirt and jeans. so unprepared. If you are going to war, make sure you grab your armor. With God's armor, you are well protected and guided.

I love the worship song that we sang in church over the weekend. Hati Hamba, the english version. Words that are so true, from the bottom of our hearts we will sing. I love my God!

update

2008-06-22T09:34:00.001-07:00

Actually wanted to blog a long long entry today, but Im really really super duper tired. Finally back from reservist and everything is starting to fall back into place soon. Time is really flying by and I need to start planning my timetable for school yet again.

Just sent a super long email out. Awaiting reply. Anxious. harhar.. Dun know what's e reply gonna be. I have been thinking quite a lot recently, especially when Im in camp when I was free. Lots of random thoughts and ya, shall blog all about it really soon.

gonna sleep le. at least i blogged today!

oh ya, anyway, wanna shout out this! "CONGRATS to YANG LIN!! I'M SOOOO PROUD OF YOU!!" Yi shan hai you yi shan gao! My ex-student is really so LI HAI, better than your shifu/teacher!! haha.. Awesome! JIA YOU ar!!