Tuesday, June 21, 2005

yup, here i am.. back to update my blog again.. im bored.. currently having my leave, off till 27th june, so gonna rot at home.. haiz.. wanted to go zoo yesterday, but ended up not going le.. sianz.. my mind's in a blank now.. dun know what to do.. it seems that there's so much to do that i dun even know how to start.. am i feeling stressed? i dun know.. i dun think so bahz.. juz a bit fan.. harhar.. im a stress-free n happy guy rite? hee..
yup, been thinking.. hw to be a good leader? it's really not easy man.. am i being too friendly to them? i dun know.. maybe i should be more fierce? harhar.. then i think that just wouldnt be me anymore.. i dun wanna force anyone to do anything.. it's all about willingness rite? if u r not willing, what's e point of forcing you to do something?? sianz.. somehow, i feel that those books that i read abt leadership seems useless now.. yah, they may b really good, but somehow, they juz dun work for me in this situation!!! i've tried talking to them, explaining y i want things done these ways, but it juz wouldnt work.. harhar.. dun know what more can i say now..
times r so different now.. in e past, when i 1st came to church, i feel that God is everything.. so whatever that my leader needs me to do, i'll always do it, no questions asked.. maybe that's willingness.. it's like no matter what, always putting God 1st!! like even when i was having my O'Levels or A'Levels, i nv once asked for a break, from ministry, or cg or svc.. i always believed in Mt6:33... Seek 1ST e Kingdom of GOD, n His righteousness, n ALL these things shall be ADDED unto you!! is it really so hard to put Him 1st?? r ur studies or work more impt than Him?? i dun understand.. without God, whr would ur studies or work be? He's e one who created all these, isnt it??
haiz.. i shall not talk so much abt it le.. anyway, one happier thing is that i learnt a new word, rara.. harhar.. from my cute n funny a maths student, Yang Lin.. she's a good student, n a hardworking one too.. n i feel that, u r a great disciple of God, because u r what a true disciple should be.. accountability, willingness n always eager to know more about Him.. Juz stay true to Him always, n feel Him.. He's there to guide you everyday, protecting you n watching over you!! n yah, if u happen to be reading this, i juz wanna let u know that knowing you just makes my day!! thx for being my Sister-in-Christ!! Let's shine even brighter for Him!! AMEN!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, June 21, 2005