Friday, September 30, 2005

hihi.. today is friday. 30th sep.. totally stressed out day.. had so many so many stuffs to do in camp, all coming to me at the same time.. im stressed.. 3 of my kids supposed to be attend svc today, but 2 of them cant be found!!! oh no.. no choice, gotta keep finding.. haiz.. thank God yang lin managed to help me find them.. late a bit for svc, but still in time to enjoy the show.. praise God for that.. think it's my fault, told them le, but didnt make sure they really know whr's the place.. haiz.. slipshod work from me?? haiz.. getting critical of myself.. am i doing a good job??
tmr is children's day.. a big big day.. a time to reach out, a time for so many souls to be saved.. God can.. i can make it rite? God, aren't u for me?? Yes, u are!!! amen!! so many things needs to be done, preparations, games, my mind is a blank.. too fast?? am i sprinting too fast?? but it's e last lap le, how can i slow down?? haiz..
guess that im affected.. need someone to talk to.. met them on tues.. y do they seem so indifferent? to them, church seems a thing of the past.. something for them to look back n see what they had done b4.. i want to rech out to them again.. but i seem to be so helpless.. these were the ppl who actually were praying, praising n worshipping God together w me in the past.. but now.. is God really a thing of the past for them?? or is it the stress?? somehow, im affected.. maybe it's because that i still dun understand certain things? i dun think i'll ever understand these things.. to me, He's everything.. like what i read in the devotion a few days ago, it's not our faith that causes us to believe in God, but it's because of Jesus.. He's the author n finisher of our faith.. He's the reason..
now, tmr's gonna be a tiring day, but God is my strength, isnt He? i really need You now to come through for me.. it's not going to be easy, but God i really need You.. i'm not going to lose You.. NO!! never will that happen.. im moving on, pressing on.. even if i gotta crawl, im not going to give up.. i will keep moving.. yes, i will..
wow, just did a stock take on my finance just now.. really amazed at how much i can spend.. cant believe it.. purely on children's day alone, i've spend close to 100 bucks.. plus my bills, building fund, tithes.. wow... what a great sum of money.. but it's all for a good cause rite? He will bless me back many many folds more!! Amen!!
yeah, tired of typing le.. still go work to do later.. haiz.. meeting up w patuma? dun know.. gotta finish the masks tonite.. it's going to be a special for my bus, E04.. yeah, it is.. harhar..
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, September 30, 2005