Monday, June 04, 2007

im in the process of learning. learning to let go and LET GOD! so many things coming up in June. my life is plunged into uncertainities again. n feeling frustrated over it. so many things that are not within my control. really gotta let go this time round. by my own strength, nothing much will be done.

this yr's Emerge was good. but... i still loved the 1st ever Emerge i attended. this yr, i attended only 3 svc, though i was present for all of them. reason being; i had to serve. i really miss the days of just simply being able to attend svc peacefully n quietly, enjoying the presence of God. no need to rush, just simply soaking in His presence. no longer easy when your mind is full of things running through.

but i still caught some stuff which really made a difference to me. LOVE. a word so powerful that it overshadows eveything. out of His love for us, Jesus sacrificed. out of my love, i served. out of love, fear no longer exists. will this love flow out of every area of my life that all will be impacted?

another moment was when Pst Abraham Khoo prayed for the church. 3 things he mentioned. creativity. arrows. the earthquake n tsunami in the spiritual realm. when Pst talked about us being the arrows that will be shot out into the world, i rmbr a chinese proverb that i learnt - jian zai xuan shang, bu de bu fa. it means that once the arrow is fixed onto the bow and pulled into position, you would not have a choice but to fire it out. its the same with our church rite now, we are being prepared for something bigger, something greater. like arrows that are going to be loaded unto the bow. n once that is done, we will be fired all out to be an impact in the world!

finally, the last thing that i really learned was brokeness. only when the pitcher broke did the light shine forth. only when the alabaster flask broke did the anointing flow. only through broked vessels, God will use. not partially broken, but fully broken before God! this message has been going on for quite a while, brokeness. are we really broken within our hearts? is there pride within? i loved the song - one word and I will follow. are you able to do that?

God makes all things possible! time will pass and all these things will pass. till then, i need to learn. learn to let go. learn to trust and obey. learn to let GOD! please help me, God!! in need of you!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, June 04, 2007