Wednesday, November 28, 2007

today's a nice and beautiful day spent with myself!! harhar.. i guess everyone, at some point in time, needs to spend some time with himself/herself. N that definitely includes me! so glad to finally have some time for myself today. harhar..

Basically, for the 1st time in the past 3 months, today's the 1st day that i can sleep without worrying about over-sleeping. thus, i woke up only at 11plus but even then, i didnt had to rush. just relax and go about doing my things slowly.

cleared all the notes that i no longer need. at least my drawer and shelf looks so much neater now. its been in need of attention for super duper long already. finally done. then i had time to sit down and plan some stuff for my zone, and also for Christmas big day!!

so shiok. i absolutely love it!! resting and preparing for something greater! it's about time already. harhar. im really excited. this time round, i feel the sense of responsiblity on my shoulders. i know i gotta arise. somehow, it seems like the time has come. i dun feel stressed about doing what im supposed to do. In fact, im really excited about it. so different as compared to a few months back.

Things really happen and move according to God's timing. Not how i decide but how He decides. Through this entire past two weeks, i have learnt to just trust God more. Was talking to my fren, about having faith and believing. but she said true faith is hard. it really sets me thinking. is it really that hard? maybe it is, maybe it is not. maybe im reckless. coz i have learnt to simply believe and have faith that all will work out. sometimes, too much reasoning and questioning really takes away all the meaning of faith.

Im really glad for all the things that i have been through. from the very start of my journey, on the 061001, when i became a child of God. it has really prepared me well for the things that im going to achieve. it hasnt been an easy journey for me. the disappointments, sadness and pain i've been through had made me so much stronger.

One of the first few things that i learnt was about preference and conviction. Conviction was the key that had led me so far. What's my conviction? My conviction to fulfill my destiny. the destiny that has been set forth for me. planned ahead of time. even before i was born. taking baby steps towards it each and very single day. i want to be making a difference.

Creating an IMPACT! one that lasts and never ends. a LEGACY that shall be carried on the shoulders of my people. and my kids will ARISE and be M.A.D - Making A Difference
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Monday, November 26, 2007

yea, 25th Nov marks the glorious day when 170 children stepped onto the stage to produce an awesome musical to an all-packed Victoria Theatre, seating 900 people watching them! I'm sooooooooooooo proud of my kids, namely, En Ting, Eleanor n Jacq!! Especially for Jacq, think she really took a step of faith to be a part of this musical. And i can see that she has grown alot during this short period of time.



All it took, was just 3 weeks of rehearsals and practice and there they are, on the stage, singing, dancing for all the people to watch. My fren said im so fatherly.. haha, but i guess that's really how i felt, when i saw the things my kids went through. How they have grown stronger, how they have learnt and moved on to a whole new level. *tears*



Im glad that I made the decision to be a part of this team, to be involved in this musical though im having my exams. It was really fun working with all the stage personnel, namely Anson, Wendy, Gary, Jevons, Andrew, Bowen, Isaac. It was stressful to ensure that all props are changed at the correct timings for the correct scenes, BUT it was absolute fun. All the fun times spent chatting and eating, laughing over lame jokes, getting work done in the midst of the long hours we spent in Victoria Theatre.



If there's a chance to do it again, I'm so sure that i'm not going to miss it come what may. Harhar!!!



Exams are HERE!!! Finance paper is over. Thank God for grace! I could do like 70& of the qns which is seriously not bad, considering that i could only do 8/15 qns for my midterms. Im simply so glad that it's over. Im just left with another paper tmr. MPW. Can be done with an eye closed and that explains my holiday mood n the reason why Im blogging now and not studying!! hehe..



Christmas is coming really soon! N i can sense that im going to be soooooo busy!! harhar.. but im excited. im already starting to pray for new visions for the new year ahead!! yup.. I know that i will arise and go up to another level. the word of the day, IMPACT!! More will be elaborated next time. hehe.



I'm feeling so Christmasssssyyyyyyy.... I so wanna watch so many many movies, go on a big shopping trip and enjoy!!!!! yup.. i wanna soak up the Christmassyy atmosphere!! was walking past my school area the other day after studying and the lightings are soooooooo nice!!! 1st time i really took notice of all this lightings though i see it every year. learning how to appreciate the small things ard me. harhar.



alot of decisions to be made. im considering, pondering and wondering. not knowing what to do man.. arrrgggghhhh. sometimes, i'm really bad at saying no man!! but i can sense a change. really. something is moving in the air. God, pls help me to handle all that i have to do. yea! help me to be firm in the decisions that i make.



finally, a tribute to my dearest helper, ENERGIZER!!! u know who you are! harhar.. thanks for being so energetic always and for making a difference in this musical. your willingness and availability will bring you to places! Jia you jia you!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, November 26, 2007

Sunday, November 18, 2007

This is one of the busiest period of my life. I would say that it's one of the few times that i really felt super stretched that at times, thoughts of just giving it all up came in. But i know, I'm too stubborn for that to happen. I wanna prove to myself and to people that I can do it. I will not be defeated. Maybe, if people who's in my shoes would have given up, but it's not going to me. Coz i know the difference that God had made in my life.

My schedule for the week:

Monday
10am - 6pm = studying in school
6pm-10pm = rehearsal at JW
11pm-2am = studying at home

Tuesday
9am - 2pm = Working
2pm-10pm = rehearsal at Victoria
10pm - 1am = Studying at home

Wednesday
9am - 9pm = Studying in school
- 11pm - 2am = Studying at home

Thursday
10am - 2pm = Working
2pm-530pm = Meetings and a bit of studying
6pm - 10pm = Visitation
10pm - 2am = Studying

Friday
10am - 9pm = studying in school

Saturday
8am - 4pm = Excursion at the Bollywood Veggies Farm
5pm - 9pm = Church

Sunday
9am - 12pm = Studying at home
1pm - 11pm = Rehearsal at Victoria + Actual performance

Monday - Finance paper

Tuesday - MPW paper + FREEDOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!

harhar.. this is my long and hectic schedule. so if you see me looking tired, and not responding to you, you should know why. harhar.. yup yup.

so many thoughts. one of my leaders said something, we are like lost sheeps without a shepherd. yea, we need a direction, we need to get our act together and make things happen! n i know we can do it.

somehow, felt a bit upset over some stuff. haiz.. why would people become critical? for the very goal that they had commited to? i dun understand. maybe its the circumstances that made it that way. things are not right. haiz.. so sadded.. harhar. i really wonder... yea.. thinking..

i need more brain power and more sleep. so i guess ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS is a really nice dinner with lots of sleep. That would be the perfect gift for me. N it would be awesome if i can really meet up with some of my frens for a nice meal. yea. looking forward to a brand new year!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, November 18, 2007

Thursday, November 01, 2007

It's definitly not an easy time for me. But i would say that i have learnt a lot. I know many people are reading this, but no worries. I wouldnt be giving up easily. I will fight on. Giving in is like surrending to the devil. I will arise and we shall go from glory to glory!

Things takes time. But i'm glad that my past has made me stronger. I will be strong so that i can be a pillar of strength to the people around me. Together, i know we can.

This is gonna be my most busy period. Exams, Victoria Concert Hall performance, Christmas big day coming up. But im excited. The more busy i am, the more excited i will be. I will arise!! Now is the time to shine! No compromise! It's time to return the blows, slap the devil upside down!! harhar..

Some things have taken a step backwards. I have no idea how it will turn out, but at the moment, i really can't think much about it. Concentrating on the things on hand. I hope you understand.

I need great financial breakthrough! Income from all possible ways. Give me ideas, creative ways! Go Go Go!! super duper excited about building fund.

Time to get back to serious work! My engine has started rolling!!! Approaching full speed! BEWARE!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Thursday, November 01, 2007