Sunday, December 30, 2007

This is going to be one super duper long entry. *warning* you may be bored to death!! haaa.. but i dun think so. coz my life is soooooooo happening that you cant wait to read more about it!

Basically, I just wanna reflect and think through the stuff that happened in 2007. So many things happened, and I know, that this wasnt really the best year for me. Before I typed this, I was still thinking if i wanna blog about it as it will make me think more. harhar. but i guess i have learnt and moved on in my life. to a whole new level.

This year has been a year of highs and low. so i shall talk about it in separate parts... haha..

first of all, it's my studies. at the start of the year, which was my 2nd semester of my SMU life. i got my first ever A+ and i had quite a good overall GPA. then, in my 3 semester, i failed to get any A's... haha. simply bcoz im too slack, not disciplined at all. super duper sianz. coz it pulled down my GPA.. but im sure that in 2008, im going to get really good results. coz i have made the decision not to slack. at least for next sem... harhar.. im going to be a chiongster next sem.

next up, for my ministry. so many things happened. that makes me feel sad when i think about it. those who knows me well enough should know what happened so i shall not elaborate more. but what i can say is that this incident has indeed made me much stronger. i have learnt and moved on. i have learnt to depend more on God. I have grown closer to Pst and the other leaders around me. maybe you do not know it, but your friendship and concern did make a difference in helping me to be strong so tat i can stand in the gap to help e younger leaders and helpers.

despite the unhappy things, there's still so many things to rejoice! harhar. this time round, for Christmas big day, my zone hit our target, above and beyond. this seems to be the 1st time that we made it. N moreover, the new kid on the block - Patuma, won e best growth award! harhar.. so proud of her! from the very 1st day she started out with me, through all the trainings, scoldings and now finally, she has emerged! i still rmbr the time when she didnt even wanna go for SWAT class. but now, she's an awesome leader, holding 2 groups! n doing very well!! Praise God!

For my group, i also experienced change. I took over the Bedok group. super duper big group. not just in number of kids, but in the land area. But im glad that for big day, i broke through with 64 kids. all along, it always had only 40plus 50 kids for big days. but now, it happened. n there was this period of time, i had 2-3 newcomers every single week for about 2 months and some of them are retained! Praise God. This group is growing well and im sure that in 2008, it shall grow even more! harhar. its time to raise up the next best growth leader from my zone - CALISTA SOH!!!! YOU ARE ON COURSE FOR THE NEXT SWAT class. harhar..

and friends. this year has been a year where some friendships blossomed while some withered. i always wished that the phrase 'friends forever' is true. to a certain extent, i realised that friends are in our life at different times, different crossroads. and once it's past, it's past. yes, u may still be friends, but somehow, its just simply different. Was chatting to my fren from my sec school. we would chill out together, play soccer together and a lot of crazy stuff. but now, we seldom chat much, not even on msn. he was the one who brought me to church, but now, only im left. now, we meet up once a year, with the rest of the sec school frens. still quite fun to hang out with, but its just diff.

had many new friendships this year too!! the famous F4 from CCH.. harhar.. i think the only thing common between me and them is that im just as crappy as them. especially EUGENE(who reads my blog but doesnt tag!!!). but im glad to know them. at least im fellowshipping with ppl ard my age. harhar. makes me feel a tiny winy bit younger. n oh yes, another new found fren this year, tim. haha. an unlikely candidate, but somehow, got to know him through angel clay. coz he always come to the shop.. hahaaa.. nice n faithful fren! appreciated your gestures and small acts!

even in school, i have made some really cool frens! haha. most of them are actually Christians and though some are not, they are really some of the really nice ppl ard in school, my study kakis, long-suffering frens, like berber, yuki, MK, brynner, chris, bernice, george etc.

even for my personal life, i went through a roller coaster. harhar. some stuff happened along e way. thot something might happen. but in the end, it wasnt meant to be. i think it has gotta do with me. my fault i suppose. i dun know. but yea, some stuff happens in the right season. there's no need to rush. i guess these things always happens when i needed someone to talk to the most. harhar. but i have learnt. really. so right now, all im focusing on is Him. yea, i have thot abt it. moved on and focus on the things at hand. there's so many things that requires my attention. harhar.

and yea, i got baptised this year too! with the name Azrael! which means God's helper! n indeed i have been God's helper, sent everywhere to do everything! harhar..

Even in my family, it wasnt really smooth. My dad went to e hospital earlier in the year, but thank God everything's alright. Through that incident, i realised the importance of appreciating and treasuring my family members even more. Maybe my love language is diff and i do not how to express myself tat well, but i really do care. quarrels still happens, n it's always bcoz of the same issue. with me going to church so much. harhar. but i know that when i give God my time n all, He indeed takes care of the rest for me! n i believe, that this is indeed the time and season for me to give my all. Im not really sure about how things will be next time, if i will serve that much, but at the very least. now is my time. it is His time for me!

2007 wasnt really the best year for me, but it was a year of growth, learning n understanding n knowing more things. it has certainly made me stronger and better equiped to handle the challenges ahead. i know, 2008 will not be the same as this year.

my new motto for the year 2008 - making an IMPACT. the rippling effect. an impact, a force, a presence, creating a dent, ripples, influence. will update more about this again.
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Sunday, December 30, 2007