Tuesday, April 29, 2008

it's another day at work. more mundane job, but im getting the hang of it already. e highlight of the day was when my big boss came to me and said, "very boring hor, maybe we can get you to write a research paper for us" haaa.. so interesting la. my eyes lit up at that. finally i can do something productive and useful le!! and apply my knowledge!! yea, God is good! all the time!

basically, i was emo-ing today. in e morning n i was complaining to hui online. i wanted to sleep, but had to get to work.. grrr.. but anyway, im refreshed. bcoz........................................................

i went for a run and spent some time alone!! haaa.. 45 mins to be exact.. ran about 4-5km i think. then spend e time worshiping, praying and simply talking to God. it's really times like this that really refreshes my spirit, like a fresh in-pouring of His anointing n e Holy Spirit. i never liked running, till i started knowing about God. n i run at night, at 10-11pm. bcoz it's so dark and quiet that i can run and sing out loud n no one will be ard to hear me 'croak'. haha.. only God hears n I hear!! haaa..

Loving God is not easy, it takes discipline. I realised. Disciplined enough to pray and commune with Him daily. Disciplined to sacrifice and to seek Him n do His will. Disciplined to get into your prayer closet(not e real physical closet), and just spend time alone. How many of us really does all those DAILY? Have we ever given e excuse that we are too tired to pray? Or sometimes, we are simply too overwhelmed with stuff that we just fall asleep once we hit e bed. I'm guilty of that, n i believe so are you. But God NEVER stops loving us, and ALWAYS wants to commune with us. ONLY if we take the 1st step to do so.

I know where's my secret place. It's where i meet with Him. Do you?
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Monday, April 28, 2008

it's been a long long day....... started my internship, not e most ideal, but then, i think its quite ok. the culture there is really nice, quite close knit. the only boring part would be the work. haa. did some data entry work today only. but thank God there's an event coming up in May which i will play a part, if not i will be super sianz. harhar.. and thank God, i CAN USE MSN!!!

met up my fren for dinner after work, n she was super slow.. been ages since i saw her, so ya, in e end, i went ard shopping n bought a pair of jeans n 2 tops.. haaa... buying out of neccessity, so not really fun. but then, at least i wouldnt be so bored to wear the same clothes le.. harhar..

thats not the main point of this whole entry, my entries are always meant to set people thinking!! haaa..

so here's the question for the day. Should you excel in ministry or should you excel in church? That's was the qn that i was talking to my fren about today, and it set me thinking. she had bad experiences working with some ppl, who are leaders in church, but then, cant really make it in school work bcoz of poor attitude. haiz.. this qn reminded me of something else that someone asked me the other day. where should we draw the line between work and ministry?

basically, the key in both qns is what's the priority? I don't really have a definite answer to that question. What will you choose if you could only choose one? Work or ministry? I think my answer would be God! I would choose God, because all along, i have never thought of this qn, maybe bcoz it didnt occur to me. How do i balance serving God in my ministry, and excelling in my work(studies). I guess it's because i had a strong foundation in my walk with Him. thats y i chose God! Choosing God allows me to have the capacity to enlarge myself and handle so many things. It's definitely something that I could not have done it alone. to do so many things.

I dun really understand, is it really so difficult? maybe it takes extra effort, but i always think that it's possible. there are many ways to do certain things. there can be so many ways to get work done, there are so many aspects that u can serve God in. What matters maybe is that are you willing to make the effort to press in n get it done? to make things happen?

what do you think? feel free to leave ur comments in my tagbox or u can email me!! haaa...
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, April 28, 2008

Friday, April 18, 2008

It's been an eventful week, tiring but it sets me thinking about lots of stuff. Exams came and went like a whirlwind. 3 papers, spread out over 3 days. 2 papers on Monday, and the last one on Wednesday. I think i did well for 2 of it, while the other one, i couldnt really have done any more to prevent anything else from happening. maybe i didnt give my best, but then, somehow, i didnt really care or bother much abt grades this semester. the pursuit of a position on the dean's list seemed to have been lost in the crowd of scholars and smarties in school. what matters more for me now, is really to get something out of this whole school experience, other than GPA. Im going for my internship soon, need to squeeze out enthusiasm from my drying up well of youth. harhar..

was at a wake for the past few days, in e midst of my exams. though it doesnt really affect my studying schedule, as i wouldnt have been studying much too, but it did set me thinking about a lot of stuff. as someone departs, what's left behind is indeed memories of what the person had done all through his life. it's the legacy that's being left behind. it's not really about the achievements that you have in life, but it's how you have lived your life? It's not about how much you have, but how much you have given, how much you have made an impact in someone's life?

I'm not really sure about how others may think, but all my life, I have learnt something, and it's something that i hold on dearly to. It could possibly be the thing that motivates me to do the things that I do. I always believed that this life that we have, doesnt really just belong to us alone. But it belongs to the people around us, it belongs to God. Yes, we do have the choice to make the final decision, but whatever you choose, you will end up not only affecting yourself, but people around you. People who care, people who value you for who you are, people who are a part of you. Maybe, your decision would possibly affect the people in future that you might or might not meet because of this decision that you make.

If you are thinking about what to do with your life right at this very moment, here's a challenge to you.

Make an IMPACT, leave a LEGACY!

no one promised that the road ahead is a bed of roses, but i promise you that it would a worthwhile trip to make!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, April 18, 2008

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? "Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river.

You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

this was from hui's email.. interesting..

hmmm, there's another story.. about a budding flower..

once, there's a nice flower that's growing..

planted in good soil..

its a beautiful flower that has the potential to grow..

but, a flower still needs water, sunlight n fertilisers..

a person came along, and exclaimed, what a beautiful flower, and added some water..

another person came along, and did exactly the same thing..

another came..

another came..

another came..

what do u think will happen??

the flower looks like it's drowning..

it may still survive, but then again, it doesnt have much control over how much water it is being given..

will the people understand that sufficient water is good, but excess is bane for the flower?
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008

It's a monday, people say that you will have monday blues on monday. but not today for me.

coz im feeling high!!!!!!!!!!!! haaaaa...

2 papers today, over le, I did well for the 1st paper, 8 essays in 2 hours. short half page questions. No problem at all, easily did all of them. However, my 2nd paper was chui, 3 essays, choose 2. BUT i cant choose any, coz i cant answer any of them. so that's 30 marks down the drain. Gotta pray hard that i can get my other 120 marks, thank God its out of 150 marks!!! harhar..

So im feeling really happy now that my semester is ending soon!! Just one more paper on Wed and im done.

I should be studying, but im doing random stuff. Clearing all my notes, getting ready to sell them to the garang-guni man. harhar.

I did some planning for e rest of my 2 years in school. I just realised that I ONLY HAVE 16.5 MODULES LEFT TO COMPLETE in 2 yrs!! so happening n so happy!! I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Gonna be busy over this whole week. so many things to settle and so many things to do.

All i want now is to read my book, Falling Leaves. I should be done by end of April i guess. harhar. I need more books soon!!!
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Monday, April 14, 2008

Friday, April 11, 2008

it's no longer the same. it just feels so different.

things changed, moved on.

i've aged.

no longer interested.

no longer motivated.

all i want is to sleep

to do everything and anything except .....

i miss that feeling.

it's gonna be 5 more days.

im feeling sleepy.

how?

harhar.. I MISS AVERIE!!! harhar.. gonna teach her how to say Uncle Eng Wee hen shuai!!! bleah!!

this is a super random post.

it's something to do when you no longer feel like mugging.
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Friday, April 11, 2008

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

it's e last lap. im growing tired and weary. cant wait for 16th April to arrive soon. 2 quizzes in a few hours time, back to back. how exciting. not really nervous about it. read and did all that i could.

but i'm tired. not just physically. tired of school. it's mental i guess. but i'm fine. 4 more sems to go. i will be fine. just whiny! harhar.

was thinking random thoughts. because i do not want to sleep. should i play game now? or should i sleep? there's a soccer match soon at 245am. harhar.

so many times, our agenda takes main priorities in our lives. losing focus = losing power. why can't we understand that at the end of the day, all that really matters is Him.

It's not easy to trust. to let go of all we have. isn't it so? the more you know, the harder it is to let go, coz you tend to think that you know it all.

Knowledge is good, Mal-knowledge(same as malfunction) is pulling you down. It's not with e knowledge we know, or have. it's how we use it. mal-knowledge occurs when you used it wrongly.

was listening to some praise and worship songs today. n in one of it, Don Moen said this verse, from (The Message)

Matthew 11: 28
"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

It's not e amount of knowledge that we know or the things that we do that matters. People asked me how can i juggle so many things at one time. I can only say it's God who makes all these happen.

Let's learn to walk with God to live freely and lightly. beyond all e expectations of people, beyond all the responsibilities and burdens.

I thought i knew it all, but I'm learning to walk once again.......
L1v1nG 4 JeSuS at Tuesday, April 01, 2008